Back on board..New Year-New Me

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Start: 280
Last Week: 159.5
This Week: 162.5
GAINED: + 3 lbs

Oh no! I have done the unthinkable! I have broken through the 160 barrier I set for myself. My clothes are uncomfortable and too tight. I have gained 7.5 lbs in a few weeks! I cannot let this happen! I hate the holidays. I have been eating for the sake of eating. I have been making poor choices, too. Carbs, sweets, breads, alcohol....

Time to get in gear. I got a Wii for Christmas with Wii Fit Plus. I plan on using it a lot. My Mii is fat! :(

I guess I need to start losing this weight today instead of waiting till the new year. By then I would need to lose even more if I wait.

I honestly dread this. I am so sick of tracking, planning exercise time, working out, etc. But I know this is my life if I plan to stay healthy/lower weight. I sure wish I could just get to goal without effort. It is so hard for me to stay on track. I struggle every minute. It makes me feel depressed to even think about it. I never make it through the entire week. I feel pathetic and like a failure. My basic instinct is to avoid feeling like this. But instead of avoiding it by following the rules, I avoid it by not trying. If I don't try, then there is no reason to feel guilty when I make poor choices. I don't want to be like that anymore....but I will have to fight it. As I type this blog, I am fighting myself. I want to sit in my pj's all day and eat comfort foods. That sounds fun to me. Instead, I am going to try to be 'good'. One minute at a time...where did all my motivation and discipline go? I need it back.

New Years HEALTH Resolutions:
Track food and exercise daily
Video Blog on YT weekly
1200-1300 calories per day till goal
Less coffee, more water
Exercise-cardio 3 days per week, strength 2-3 days per week, yoga 1-2 days
Be more involved in Sparkpeople
Try 4 new recipes per month
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  • no profile photo CD5803114
    I am w/you. I gained too, at least according to the Drs scale, which I am not sure I believe, but my clothes are tight again too. We can both do this! You have a great plan! GO you! Have a great week and an AWESOME New YEAR!!!! Here's to rockin 2010!
    3983 days ago
    Shake it off! You can recover from this! Just a little reminder : )
    3984 days ago
    Well There ain't no way in hell i'm making an update video right now, but i'm a victim of the holidays as well lol. I ate horribly and am 160 0_o so yeah, it's time to get back on the ball again! I got 2 biggest loser cook books for xmas and made a recipe out of there already and couldn't believe how filling the food was at such low calories! Here are my new year goals....

    run 6 miles every day (3miles in the morning and 3 at night)
    no more drinking crystal light all day instead i'm only having 1 cup and the rest will be ice water...
    i'm going to start eating egg whites instead of the whole egg. i hear that's healthier...
    the biggest loser cook book said (your weight)x's 7 equal's the amount of food you need to eat...

    x 7

    so apparently that's how much i need! i'm with ya on this cheri! lets try and get to goal before spring! i know we can do this! no more excuses and more trying! lol love you girl!!!
    3984 days ago
    I'm with ya Cheri; however, I've come to learn that if I don't take care of my health by eating right and exercising, then I will gain. It is a fact of life for me so I chose to embrace it and move forward. I've messed up so much in the last few weeks that I am ashamed of myself. BTW we weigh about the same.
    3984 days ago
    Hang in there, Cheri - I'm in touch with the emotion of not wanting to do the work, and I'm not even halfway to goal yet and only 5 months out from surgery. The Wii ought to help at least make exercise fun - wish I had the moola to get one - have fun with it - get your hub involved in a little competitive Wii ;)

    I'm rooting for you!
    3984 days ago
  • SPINNER1010
    Under control shouldnt mean killing yourself and not eating enough calories. Workout every day and eat enough calories that are appropriate for your age and height. The workouts will give you the extra calorie deficit to lose a pound per week. This isnt a race. Good luck
    3985 days ago
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