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Confession and reality time...

Monday, December 21, 2009

So I've been keeping mum for quite some time about my bad food choices. I've loaded up on bad carbs time & time again. When I went to Wegman's on Friday, I brought home a large pizza, cheez-its, biscotti cookies, crackers, etc. You get the picture. On Saturday I cooked a Marie Calendars Apple crumb pie. So you see, with all this junk, I needed to go out and shovel some snow to burn it all off!

Tonight, after work, I stopped and picked up my prescription at Wegmans. Afterwards, I wandered through the store, picked up some sandwich items for DH and yogurt for DD. I looked at pies, cookies, and crackers-anything sweet or snacky. I ended up coming home with the above mentioned items for DH & DD and none of what I looked at.

Today at work, I ate about 4 or 5 Lindt truffles. I brought 2 slices of leftover pizza to work for my lunch. This is all I've eaten. I did get 8+glasses of water. I was pretty thirsty. Go figure with all that pizza. I just weighed myself. I am 300 even. I am not pleased. I know that I am better than this. I know I can do more. But I haven't put forth the effort in my meals. And the scale shows the results. I am over my lack of dedication to stay on plan. I guess I'm over myself. When I started my weight loss journey 3 years ago, I was 360 lbs. Everyday, I feel myself going backwards instead of forwards. I am allowing life and the many stressors, complications and even everyday situations, to affect my progress on my weight loss journey.

So I am making a promise to myself, here, so I can be held accountable. From this moment forward, I am going to keep it real with myself and with you. I will eat whatever I will eat tonight. Starting tomorrow, emoticon I am getting back on track-with exercise AND food. I'm going back to GETTING SERIOUS but also KEEPING IT REAL! I deserve more and my family deserves to have me here. I need to get healthy and focused. And I know that I will be able to do that as long as I pray, keep Sparking and stay accountable daily by blogging. I know that your support will make all the difference, as it ALWAYS does!

So here's to a new me...SERIOUS & REAL! emoticon
I CAN DO IT emoticon
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    Ok so you have been goofing off. Kudos for starting over tomorrow. Most people would have said - - - - it, I will start after Christmas, even better yet I'll start after New Year's.

    So here's a gentle emoticon in the pants to get you going.
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    3042 days ago
    3042 days ago
    Remember - you AREN'T at 360 anymore, which means you have made some tremendous progress. Cheering for you every inch/pound of the way!! emoticon
    3042 days ago
    Yule is a perfect day for starting anew and beginning again. It's the day for celebrating the coming of the light and rebirth. I have faith in you my precious friend. GET SERIOUS! Let's be serious together! Love, Dawn emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3043 days ago
    For some of us, poor eating habits are the stuff of decades; we can't expect them to disappear overnight, though we do hope that sometimes. That is not to say that we can't do better, that we can't change, because we can. However, the change may come slowly for some of us, more slowly than we would like and sometimes it may seem that the journey will never end, that we'll never be successful. But, if we have goals and everyday we do something towards reaching those goals, we can, in the end succeed. I'm going out on a limb and quoting our beloved Dawn Robin here. I lifted this wise woman's post from one of our threads entitled Things I Have Learned So Far. I hope she won't mind: " I have learned that NOT losing weight is okay as long as I am still doing the next right thing." So, if you aren't losing, if you have made some errors in judgement, just start again and do the next right thing.
    3043 days ago
    Simone, I hear ya. The last two weeks have been similar for me. I have been so not OP. Not everyday, not all day everyday, but enough to push the scale in the wrong direction! We're all here for you and for each other and together we can do this! Hang in there my friend :-)
    3043 days ago
  • MOMMA48
    Perfect, my friend! emoticon You CAN do it and I know you will! You are a strong person and determined -- that progress is coming your way and soon! Keep that motivation and determination on high -- that goal is going to be yours!!!
    emoticon and emoticon to You!!!!

    3043 days ago
    I'm so sorry for your weight gain. 3 years and 60 lbs seems like a very long journey. We all know how tough it is. I too have recently felt myself slipping. A bit of this, or a taste of that, no way to record that so let it go. It's probably not over my range anyway. Well, I know how disappointed I am with myself. I'm sure you feel some of that too. It's time to let it go. Get back on the straight and narrow path and become what we know we can become. One day at a time. One honest moment at a time. You can do this. WE can do this. Together we are invincible. But we must work hard. It's not going to happen by accident or without effort. It's real work, but we are up for the challenge as we are the winners when we do. Good luck, I'm here for you
    3043 days ago
    Glad you are getting back on track. You can do this! We are all here for you. Reach out any time!
    3043 days ago
    I NEVER weigh myself at any time other than first thing in the morning after I've used the potty. Remember that you're weighing all that water and food you've taken in all day. I think that first thing is the most accurate. Also, don't forget that you can still have these things (pizza, truffles, cookies, etc) as long as you are honest with yourself and log everything. I find that logging actually makes me eat better because I don't want to be entering all the less than healthy stuff. Anyway, that's my 2 cents. You're awesome, you're going to do it and do it well!
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  • -TAMI-
    You can do it honey.
    One day at a time and one small step at a time. You have lots of Spark friends who will be here to support you and love you. emoticon
    3043 days ago
    You have taken the very first important step...getting real about the situation and knowing you are going to do something about it. This is a hard journey for everyone here. You do need accountability. I know for me, daily blogging keeps me in check. I try to never miss a day. The feedback I get is motivating and keeps me on track. We are here for you and so are all the resources you need. Use them to the fullest. I also enter as many challenges as I can handle without being overwhelmed. It makes me feel like I have to do my part in something. You can do this! You will do this! Don't be afraid to ask for help anytime you need it! We are here for you! emoticon emoticon
    3043 days ago
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