Propensity for secrecy

Friday, December 18, 2009

So today is weigh in for the Wild Winter Challenge. I gained 2.2 pounds since I weighed in yesterday morning. Understandable - company holiday party last night - ate about 1000 calories extra, lots of sodium. Definitely holding water.

I considered reporting yesterday's weight instead of today's. That desire to hide what I don't like, to hide what shows areas I need to improve. It's very, very bad for me. It puts me in that river in Egypt - de Nile - LOL.

So I'm here to say, I weighed in at 219.6 this morning. I am going to a potluck tonight. I need a plan. It's at my synagogue and our kitchen is dairy-parve (i.e. no poultry, meat, or shellfish). That often translates to not very much protein at potlucks. I had planned to bring some vegetable potstickers. I'll do that, but also make some no mayo tuna salad to bring so that I know there will be protein I can eat.
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    The waterweight drives me nuts! I don't even get near the scale if I can feel the bloat. You're doing great, I think you're a little hard on yourself sometimes. Compare your behaviors to what you would have or could have done to yourself a year ago or more. That will help you put your progress into a perspective you can feel better about!
    3890 days ago
    But you DID come clean and share your real weight and that is GREAT!! It is an important opportunity here "to thine own self be true..." and then to "own" our problems and our faults and our bad habits. But also to forgive ourselves our human trespasses and get back on track. I was cheating on myself for about 2 weeks and could suddenly stop last week, thanks to your help and my other SP friends. I think the trick for these dark days and holidays is to enjoy ourselves and then clean up in the new day and get back on track. Ours advised me to exercise to stay with the program and it feels so good to do that -- thanks for being honest with us -- and YOU!
    3890 days ago
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    Good for you,Pesha!

    The veil of secrecy attitude is what lead me to Spark People. I decided to be open and post my weight, and my pictures, and let my family see how much I really weighed.

    I think it has been a major factor in my healing process. The shame is gone.
    3892 days ago
  • SUSAN134
    LOL...I have been on that that ole 'de nile' many times! I always think the waters will be smooth but it actually makes for a rough sail.

    Proud of you for opting not to travel this route. Accountability is so important, and very hard at times to stick to.

    I wish you luck tonight and hope there is a few more dishes there (other than the two you are bringing), to eat.
    3892 days ago
    Be kind to yourself - we all have days when calories get away from us, no matter how hard we try to make good choices. It would not be dishonest or cheating to use yesterday's weight, as it probably IS water weight today. After all, the calories haven't had time to settle in yet, LOL

    On the other hand, I very seldom admit to my weight - 203 yesterday, 201 today and last week.. I am trying so hard to be Alice (in One-derland..) I did not adjust my spark ticker up because I have been told that it will not register your weight loss correctly if you do (i.e. if you lose 2 pounds 10 times it will say you have lost 20 pounds)

    Every day is a new chance to succeed!
    3892 days ago
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