A better day......
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Today is a better day. Unfortunately I didn't bake yesterday but I did today.
I needed some lemon juice so DH was going to run up to get me some. Every time he tried to leave, my MIL started in on the problem she was having with aarp and that they canceled her because they didn't take the payment out. We went around and around with her trying to explain it was and it's on her statement, she wouldn't listen. There was a lot more going on and before you knew it I got upset and started wondering why am I making this stuff when I can't eat it, and then my MIL says "well don't make it then". I was also feeling depressed about the holiday"s and not having my parent's and brother here any more. You know, all the family traditions are gone. I started thinking about my grand kids and how their father (my son) and their mother can be so cruel. Before I knew I was putting everything away and decided to go to bed. I slept and slept for quite awhile, got up because I heard DH and his mom trying to make dinner. I stayed up for awhile, didn't want anything to eat, just tea. MIL kept asking me what was wrong and why wouldn't I tell her. I finally said, and not in a nice way I'm sorry to say, "I don't want to talk about it" How do you tell someone that you are hurting inside and it can't be fixed.
Well, I went back to bed at 9pm and slept till 6:30 this morning. I feel a little better, but I just wish the holiday's were over already.
Well, tomorrow hopefully will be a little better than today......one day at a time.