First step to a long journey

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Yesterday I went to the Dr. for my 6 week check up after he had tests ordered, blood work and chest x-rays.

I now have to go for a CT scan on Monday, as they found something unusual in my right lung.
Duh...we all know what that is. the thoughts have consumed my brain for the last 24 hours. I have told no one as of yet. no need to alarm anyone,

My mother had her surgery and is doing ok, I guess. I cpoke to her last on her birthday two months ago, and now something is wrong and her phone is disconected, and I don't know how to reach her, at a time like this I know I will want to console in her because she just went through it. My daughter in law also just lost her mother to cancer...this will be a mind blowing thing for the kids to deal with, so I am going to try to do it all without letting them know what is going on.

I know that some of you will comment on this blog, and I do appreciate it. I am just kind of numb at the moment and not even sure what to think.

maybe it will be ok, maybe it was just a shadow?? Yea I know stop kidding myself, but humor is all I have left.
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    thank you all for your words of encouragement. The test results are not in yet, I am praying it is just something simple. we will see by the end of the week. thank you all again
    4135 days ago
    When they find something you always think of the worst thing! I know, I am a Breast Cancer Survivor of 15 years! I will keep you in my prayers! Take it moment by moment,!I will be here if you need to talk! Or yell, or scream!

    Take Care;
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    4136 days ago
    I know you have your CT scan today, and I am praying for you. A spot on the screen doesn't necessarily mean it's a cancer tumor. Only a test will know for sure. I know that does not help in any way, as you are terribly scared. Please know that we are praying for you and you do not have to go through any of this by yourself. There's no need to. That's what SparkPeople is about...helping each other through these kinds of rough times. It's not all about weightloss...not at all. We genuinely care and will be praying for you. emoticon emoticon
    4137 days ago
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    I don't have any great inspired words to encourage you other than to tell you that I am praying for you and that no matter what, God will give you what you need for the moment. You do not need to walk whatever path is before you alone.

    Please keep us updated

    4140 days ago
    well I wont know anything untill after Monday. I pray it is nothing ...but I know better. I was told by one doctor last year I have enphazima or how ever you spell it. but thank you for your thoughts
    4141 days ago
    I hope everything goes well. Maybe a fly flew by at just the right time to make a shadow! emoticon
    4141 days ago
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