Dr Appt and no motivation
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
This is the first time I have logged into SP in about a week. I knew I was eating horribly and did not want to see the results here. I also knew I had a Dr appt coming up this morning and I was letting go before I knew I was going to have to buckle down.
Let me explain.
I was diagnosed with high blood pressure when I was going for a should scope back in August. I put off seeing my regular doctor this long, because I do not want to face this truth. I finally did it and my blood pressure went from 140/105 in the hospital to 160/110 today at my appointment. I start meds today for that. Get checked in a couple of weeks to see how it is working.
I am having a much harder time than I thought to even start sincerely changing. My only effort thus far has been to track my food. The worst part is if I am having a bad day I choose to not track it at all, which is only kidding myself. I see there are great resources available out here, but I have 0 motivation to actually do any of them. I am going to have to force myself to change at this point, because I have no want to do it.