Trying again... more chemo for me

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Well, the results of the PET/CT scan were not as promising as I had hoped and I am having more chemo. My oncologist has also applied for compassionate use of a new drug that is still in clinical trials. I am not eligible for the clinical trials because I have had carboplatin in the past (and am having it again), so compassionate use it will have to be.

I'm not going to say that this has not thrown me for a complete loop. It has. However, I am not going to let this get me down. I have to admit, though, that it has not been easy. In January, I will have been receiving treatment for a year. I never thought I would still be doing chemo at this point.

Staying positive. Praying. Living life. That is what I am doing to cope. My oncologist suggested that I might consider discontinuing to work, but I told her that working keeps me sane. Who says that???? I do love what I do and I am eternally grateful that the powers that be have been flexible and let me work via distance technology while I am fighting to get well. I cannot imagine giving up work. It would seem too much like giving up.

So... I have an appointment with another oncologist on Monday. I've had two treatments so far and they haven't knocked me over. Since I am doing chemo, all of my holiday shopping has been online to avoid getting sick. I thought that would be a bit depressing, but it has been great fun! I've gotten some great deals, too --and I am all about the bargains!

That's my story and I am sticking to it.

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  • HCARTZ1964
    may the Lord ride on your shoulders. I am adding your to our prayer list.

    Love and Light from a fellow survivor.

    3838 days ago
    Damisa, you are an inspiration! When I get into my negative complaining mood and then read your blog it gives me a boost. I've only done 4 chemos and I have 2 to go. You show me strength and bravery and positive attitude. Thank you for the role model. You are in my prayers.

    emoticon Sue
    3948 days ago
    I like the post from your co-worker about the image of you coming into the office and especially about telling about the most recent Durannie girl adventure :) That sounds awesome!! I am keeping you in thoughts and prayers, hope to see you soon!!! emoticon emoticon
    3950 days ago
    Well, I am glad to hear you keep on trying. I am hoping 2010 gives you whatever you need to turn the corner on this battle. Been a while since I thought a year was long but, I miss you at work. For 2010, I am creating an image of you coming in the office door smiling, ready to occupy your space again, eat your oatmeal, and share stories about going to a concert... I can see it now. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3950 days ago
    Hello, I am continuing to keep you in my prayers cyber girl friend. I agree with you about working.. we have to have a reason to wake up in the morning. You are awesome! Keep Smiling.

    cyber hugs emoticon emoticon
    3954 days ago
    Praying for you Damisa! Reading your blogs is such an inspiration to me. You can remain so hopeful and cheerful despite it all emoticon
    3961 days ago
    I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, as you know :) I know you are tough and will continue to fight this evil cancer with everything you've got! I agree with you, because I love what I do, also :) I think the more you do to keep your normal routine, the better it is for you, especially to keep your mind busy. I am very glad also that you are with your family during all the treatments. I will be on vacation all next week, you know you can call me anytime. (((((hugs to you))))
    3965 days ago
  • LILRED1980
    You are in my thoughts and prayers all the time. I hope that your doctor told you to consider discontinue working due to the stress that it puts on your body and not for a reason that you aren't talking about. We Love You! Hang in There! emoticon
    3965 days ago
    emoticon I'm sorry the news from your scan wasn't what you had hoped.
    It sounds like you work for a great place, I agree, if you love it, keep on working; as long as you can take the time off when you need it.
    3966 days ago
    Keep hanging in there...sending emoticon emoticon and emoticon emoticon ...keep posting and letting us know how you are doing...we are here for you!
    3967 days ago
    You really do have a really great attitude. Good luck with the treatment. You'll be in my prayers.
    3967 days ago
    I love your attitude! And I agree with you that keeping life normal makes everything feel more normal. Keep working as long as it feels right to you. I went to part time work when my medical stuff started taking up too much of my time but I hold onto that part time job as it is my oasis of normalcy. Hugs!!
    3967 days ago
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