Friday, December 11, 2009
Nineteen months ago I committed myself to losing weight. In that time I have lost 70 pounds getting me almost half way to my target goal. I have faced a lot of obstacles. Some I have managed to jump right over and keep going, others I have stared at a long time before figuring out how to get over or around them.
The biggest obstacle is still myself. I know it, I admit it, I work on it, I get moving and then I throw myself in the way again. I have been doing that a lot the last 7 months. It may seem crazy to some of you but it is hard to remember that I am a Priority, I am Important and I am so Worth the Effort.
Through a lot of prayer, reading and research I have decided to focus on myself for an intense period of time. I am planning to take a radical sabbatical.
On February 15th I am leaving my employment and spending three months in Hawaii. It sounds like an amazing vacation but that is not the goal. The purpose is to isolate myself from my existing support structure (and frequently my excuses) and work on me. I plan to step completely out of my comfort zone. I will be living in a group housing at a wellness center. I will be working 30 hours in the kitchen to help pay my room and board. The rest of the time is devoted to becoming healthier and learning to really like myself.
I have already learned that weight loss really should not be my goal but fitness should. It is great to be able to buy smaller clothes but so far nothing beats the feeling of walking for a couple of hours and not being exhausted when I used to get tired walking a block.
I have two months to get ready.