This has been an interesting week.
I received my orders to Quantico, Virginia...I will be leaving NC in June unless my recruiting package goes through. Either way, I think I will be fine. After listening to other people's opinions on what to do, I decided to let God decide (it's getting easier and easier to do so), and I'm trying my best not to worry.
Wednesday I got to shoot a comedy show on base, Louis Ramey is absolutely hilarious (if you don't know who he is look him up!) I even got to hang out with him after the show which was pretty awesome.
That night was weird though because I ended up explaining to a slightly drunk Marine about how important love is and healthy relationships...which I later realized was in fact, thank God, a revelation to me, because I myself have forgotten how to even be in love, or be in a relationship for that matter (haven't had a boyfriend since 2006, lol). But during all of this, I was ignoring someone who was a complete jerk to me (won't get into it) and like for the majority of the night he was blatantly trying to get my attention. My mom told me that it was good that I completely ignored him and that he deserved it for being so rude to me...
I don't know about that...I don't like being mean to anyone, even pretty boy jerks...
Anyways, yesterday I went on a run outside, which was my first one in like a month (treadmills are more appealing when it's cold, lol) . Well I get started, and by the time I hit my first mile, the negative thoughts in my head were as loud as ever.
"Dag, my feet, knees, legs, etc. hurts!"
"I hate hills so much."
"This cold air is killing my lungs."
"Why do I have to do this to myself??"
So I decided to stop, and shake off the aches, catch my breath, and push out all the negativity. Instead of stressing, I focused on how great I will feel when I run this full 3 miles. How I know that I am more in shape than I really think I am, and in fact, I'm really booking it up these hills! I know that I have Sgt's course to get ready for and I have to be prepared for the strenuous training, and above all that, I have to look good while doing it, lol!
So I changed the music on my Blackberry to my favorite group Incognito (if you love jazz, look them up!) and kept it moving.
By far it was the best run I've had in a long time, it felt so good when I made it to the end (although I was a little nauseous), it made me wonder why it was so hard for me to just run in the first place.
I needed that breakthrough...now I can't wait to run today!
But I better go back to sleep so I won't be too tired!