It's funny, every time I do something that ends up going bad, I hear my mother's voice in my head, "You should have listened to me, child, I tell you these things so you won't have to go through them!!"
And every time I wish I would have listened to her. But that's me, so hardheaded.
I've realized so many things that I put before what is more important shouldn't be there...the number one thing that gets me is this unexplainable desire to not be single anymore.
I know that I should be reading the Word every day, working out, focusing on my career in the Corps, to work on my video projects on the side, to be an active member for the Montford Point Marine Association...the list goes on and on...but like a dry scalp it keeps nagging me and I just have to keep scratching it.
Knowing eventually I will pay for it (like a relaxer, lol).
Instead of ignoring the obvious, that God wants me to appreciate what I have now and be happy with it...to praise him and ensure that HE is number one...that if a guy does come along, HE will not be number two...or not a number at all.
Instead of focusing on the negative, I am going to do all I can to list good things that have happened in my day!
Like today, a CWO2 thanked my entire shop for our professionalism in assisting him with his command board photo and presented us with his squadron coins. He shook my hand and said that I have some outstanding Marines under me. I felt so good about that.
Ha. Just remembering that made me feel so good.