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My ticker is running the wrong way!

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

emoticon Wow! I weighed today to put my starting weight into my new challenge team - and lo and behold that demon scale was heading in the wrong direction AGAIN! So, I was honest and updated my weight and then when I posted in one of the threads I about fell off my chair laughing...in spite of its unfuniness... because my ticker girl is going the wrong way...she's not even on the starting line anymore and that's kind of how I feel too. I'm not even at the starting line because I keep coming up with reasons that I can't start ...REALLY start... until after...

how many until afters have we all had. Even when I get back from the cruise, when I do find work and get out of my sisters house, even when Dan does go into remission from the cancer we're battling and the MVT is under control and the celiac is properly managed, even when the holidays are over, there will always be another excuse. So, tell me how did you all here on sparkpeople stop the excuses. I guess maybe I'm waiting for an ephiphany! I'm waiting for that light to come down from the heavens and for the angel of skinniness to pour her magic skinny dust on me...I've been waiting a long time. I think the waiting should be over now...not tomorrow...not next week...not after the new year...but now.

I was in an eating frenzy yesterday and I am going to say I think that is in part to making it my second alcohol free day in December. Now I intended to try to stay AF until Thursday when I leave for Mexico...but Im shaky on that I may or may not. At any rate I have noticed when I do go alcohol free I make up in spades for not drinking with LOADS of food.

So even though I wont be keeping up with my numbers and groups and such Thursday - Monday that is no reason to let today and tomorrow be "free" days like I have been considering almost every day.

I have in the past taken part in some GREAT challenges and I have a great deal of fun games and challenges to offer so I will today...in this moment...stop making excuses, feeling sorry for myself, and focusing on how I can make the next moment take me one step closer instead of one step further from the starting line to a healthier lifestyle.

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  • NANCYLEE46
    Great Blog.

    Have a great cruise.

    Nancy
    3815 days ago
  • SHERRY99992
    All we can do is keeping trying to do the right thing. Hang in there.

    Sherry
    3826 days ago
  • JUGE300000
    Oooh. This sounds so familiar. I wish you the best....Keep plugging away.

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    3831 days ago
  • CLAIRESGG
    It took me a few months of eating everything I wanted before I finally decided this had to happen for me to live and enjoy life longer. No magic, just had to get my brain straight. That is what it takes for me, getting the brain straight. Set my mind that I am going to do it and go for it and as long as I can make some headway and get encouragement, I can do it. You can too. Do it for you! Nobody but for you! One step at a time. God bless you on your journey.
    3832 days ago
  • CLAIRESGG
    It took me a few months of eating everything I wanted before I finally decided this had to happen for me to live and enjoy life longer. No magic, just had to get my brain straight. That is what it takes for me, getting the brain straight. Set my mind that I am going to do it and go for it and as long as I can make some headway and get encouragement, I can do it. You can too. Do it for you! Nobody but for you! One step at a time. God bless you on your journey.
    3832 days ago
  • CLAIRESGG
    It took me a few months of eating everything I wanted before I finally decided this had to happen for me to live and enjoy life longer. No magic, just had to get my brain straight. That is what it takes for me, getting the brain straight. Set my mind that I am going to do it and go for it and as long as I can make some headway and get encouragement, I can do it. You can too. Do it for you! Nobody but for you! One step at a time. God bless you on your journey.
    3832 days ago
  • no profile photo GRANDMAZ23
    You have a fantastic attitude! You know your strengths and you understand your weaknesses. You've already got a head start on alot of us right there!

    I don't know of any magic dust that makes anybody skinny. Wish I did. All I really know is that here on Sparks I have the support and the encouragement I need and I'm willing to share it with you. Maybe that's the magic dust?

    - Marilyn (FatChance27)
    3832 days ago
  • SHELBYBEAR
    Totally feel the same about that stupid ticker.....

    As far as an epiphany...the only thing I know is if I kept doing the same thing everyday, nothing would change. So when I don't want to go for a walk, or eat right, I have to remind myself that I can't expect to do the same things and get a different result. Nothing will change until I do.
    3832 days ago
  • TMHOPKINS
    I don't know how to get to that epiphany that makes us 'just do it', but somehow, if we keep trying, we can get there!

    I'm glad you are here today, I am feeling my ticker going the wrong way and I'm even doing everything I am supposed to do! I've been going to the gym, I've been eating in my calorie range, drinking my water...dang! I am trying to convince myself that I feel better for all the exercise no matter what, but I hope things turn around soon, or I'll bag it!
    3832 days ago
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