My ticker is running the wrong way!
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
Wow! I weighed today to put my starting weight into my new challenge team - and lo and behold that demon scale was heading in the wrong direction AGAIN! So, I was honest and updated my weight and then when I posted in one of the threads I about fell off my chair laughing...in spite of its unfuniness... because my ticker girl is going the wrong way...she's not even on the starting line anymore and that's kind of how I feel too. I'm not even at the starting line because I keep coming up with reasons that I can't start ...REALLY start... until after...
how many until afters have we all had. Even when I get back from the cruise, when I do find work and get out of my sisters house, even when Dan does go into remission from the cancer we're battling and the MVT is under control and the celiac is properly managed, even when the holidays are over, there will always be another excuse. So, tell me how did you all here on sparkpeople stop the excuses. I guess maybe I'm waiting for an ephiphany! I'm waiting for that light to come down from the heavens and for the angel of skinniness to pour her magic skinny dust on me...I've been waiting a long time. I think the waiting should be over now...not tomorrow...not next week...not after the new year...but now.
I was in an eating frenzy yesterday and I am going to say I think that is in part to making it my second alcohol free day in December. Now I intended to try to stay AF until Thursday when I leave for Mexico...but Im shaky on that I may or may not. At any rate I have noticed when I do go alcohol free I make up in spades for not drinking with LOADS of food.
So even though I wont be keeping up with my numbers and groups and such Thursday - Monday that is no reason to let today and tomorrow be "free" days like I have been considering almost every day.
I have in the past taken part in some GREAT challenges and I have a great deal of fun games and challenges to offer so I will today...in this moment...stop making excuses, feeling sorry for myself, and focusing on how I can make the next moment take me one step closer instead of one step further from the starting line to a healthier lifestyle.