This Relationship has to End!!
Monday, December 07, 2009
I have come to see that my realtionship with eating healthy and losing weight can be compaired to that of a couple that I used to know...you all know the kind...those friends that you have that you never know are together or broken up because they are always "on again, off again". The thing that always came to my mind when thinking about that couple is that they should just "get it over with and break up for good, already!!"
Well, it seems that now that I am there, with my food choices, not my choice in men, it is not so easy to do. Do those people feel they same way that I do? Is this something that they really want and feel like they could not live without but giving up is easier than the fight to stick with it? I feel very sorry for them if they feel this way...I finally know what they are going through. Some days I feel on top of the word as I eat my rice krispies and banana's for breakfast while other days that donut is just so much easier...I can eat it in the car, I will have an extra 15 minutes in the morning, there are no bowls to clean :).
It is this kind of volatile relationship that I want for my life? No. By being hard on myself and looking at "budda belly" in the mirror every morning change anything? Not really. Whats my next step? I have no idea. All i do know is that this relationship has to stop. Something has to change in order to get the best out of this life. Hey! Maybe my next step should be to buy some disposable bowls, banish donuts from my house (and my car), and get up 15 minutes earlier every morning.
Donut...I want a divorce.