update numero 2
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
it's december... emphasis on the *brrr* lol sorry, i'm a dork. so yea, today was my day off. had another breast exam today. i tried to cancel it yesterday, because i felt like it was a waste of my time. why would i drive down to the doctor and pay a co-pay for her to do ANOTHER breast exam, when it's the same time of the month as it was last month, and her doing the exam isn't going to explain why i'm in pain, and certainly isn't going to take the pain away... but she called me and said that she didn't want to cancel my appointment, that she wanted to see me, to do the exam. so, as angry and frustrated as i was, i went down there today. when i got into the office, the FIRST thing the receptionist asked me for was my co-pay, which reallyyy ticked me off.. if you could have seen the way i sat in the waiting room, i was steaming. lol. my appt. was at 11:30 and i wasn't seen until 12:00. sat there waiting, getting more and more angry. so angry that i felt like crying. it just felt like a waste of my time and money, and i'm sick of being run around in circles. she did a thorough exam on both my breasts, and i told her i've been feeling more pain in my left breast lately, and the right one still hurts daily. she found that i'm actually in pain in the same exact spot on BOTH breasts, which she said is better than having pain in just one breast because it's less likely to be cancer. i was on Nuvaring for about 2 years, and she had me switch back to the pill this past sunday, so i'm 4 days into my pack. i'm going to wait 2 months and see if the breast pain gets any worse or if the pain and the lump goes away... if it gets worse, i'll have to go to a breast specialist. maybe it's just a hormonal thing, who knows, but i've been in pain for about 3 months now, so we'll see. so yeaaaa... that's me. dealing with that and the holiday season being upon us... trying to stay focused and lose 5-10 lbs before my birthday (jan 4th). it's been rough lately.. mind hasn't been in it. trying to set small and large goals... and nail em! :) anyway, hope all of you are working hard and staying strong!