To My Faithful Spark Family
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
I just logged in to see all of your wonderful messages and Spark goodies. You are all so wonderful and faithful, loyal friends. I am so sorry I have been out of commission. First my computer went on the fritz and they closed the public library that is close to me, so I didn't even have access to one there. I finally got the computer working, and thought I was on my way back to my Spark World, and then my 85 year old step-mom, who also has Alzhiemer's fell and fractured her left hip. She went in for surgery and the next day she had a stroke. It has been up and down with her. The rehab center where they transferred her didn't follow dr.'s orders to give her an I.V. with saline and potassium, so she dehydrated. They moved her back to the hospital and she got better so they put her back in rehab and she got a blood clot ! They moved her back to the hospital and she got better. They moved her back to the rehab facility and she started therapy, and after two weeks of physical therapy, the administrator called my dad and told him that she was not making any progress and that she just needs to go to a nursing home to live.It's only been two weeks since she got back, and she is 85 ! Plus she has only had therapy for about 6 hours total. That was to recover from the stroke,fractured hip and blood clots. What do they expect from an 85 year old ?
On top of all of that I have taken over their financial responsibilities, and I am their driver. I have to take them everywhere. Well, right now I have to take my dad everywhere. He acts like I have no other life,no family of my own, and doesn't get, or care for that matter, that I have a condition for which I should be in bed at least 6 hours a day for myself. I have completely let my self go. I am not resting, and I am not able to eat right and on time or anything. He is sucking the life right out of me! ! I don't even know why I am doing so much for him. He was never there when I was a kid. He didn't care if my siblings and I ate, had clothing or even utilities when we were kids, as long as he had money to flash around at the bar and could go and party there every weekend. I didn't even see him from Thursday to Monday on any week because he was either partying or laid up at some floosie's house. But when the money ran out he was at home with us, being what he called a "good father". WHATEVER ! ! I have gained back 11 pounds, and I am PISSED, at him and myself for letting him take such an advantage of me that I have let myself go backwards. What's more he's not even paying me for gas, and I'm going broke taking him everywhere. I live about 17 miles from him and the home is about 10 miles from him the other direction. He has had me coming and taking him there every day and then home again not to mention the other stupid places he tries to get me to take him like the auto parts store. HE DOESN'T HAVE A CAR ! Nor can he ever drive again for that matter because he is a habitual D.U.I. offender to the tune of 13 of them ! I don't understand how he is not under the jail but he's not. In 5 weeks I have used $375 in gas and that's just driving him. I am so angry at him mostly, but at myself too. I don't see a light at the end of the tunnel on his wife, so I know I am in for a long haul. My sister and brother won't even take his calls so they are no help. They are as self-centered as he is. Very selfish.
Well, I have to go now to get him to take him to the hospital to see his wife. I will try to get back on here daily but at this point I don't know when. I am literally dragging a - -. Exhausted all of the time.
Thank you to all of my Spark friends and family. for keeping in touch and leaving all of the wonderful messages. I LOVE YOU ALL ! ! Talk to ya soon.