I feel FAT
Saturday, November 28, 2009
I' m in deep trouble. I'm back to the weight I was when I started my last challenge and I'm not happy about it. This is only the first holiday and the next one is worse, what am I going to do. With all the stress I'm under and now I found myself back to eating hershey kisses and not even paying attention to it.
I've even grabbed a cookie here and there and of course, I had to have pumpkin pie with cool whip (lite) but the cool whip was the least of my worries. I put on a pair of pants today that were very lose just a couple of weeks ago and I knew things were going the wrong way.
I KNOW what the problem is but I can't get back on track. I KNOW I eat when I'm sad and stressed so, why can't I walk away from it. This past week I really haven't been on my bike or elliptical, just cleaning. I know right where the weight is going......my stomach......and what do I do....eat and the bad stuff on top of it. Comfort foods.
I'm trying so hard to stay up and happy for the holiday's and it works sometimes. I just wish they were over already. You know, they don't mean anything any more when you are the only one left out of your immediate family and the whole Holiday tradition is gone because you have a Son and DIL who are selfish and hold grudges. Yes, I know I have a "wonderful" daughter and I love her to death but she has a life too. I hope she gets a proposal by Christmas or New Year too. They're cute together.
I re-read this and I sound like a whiner. I wish I could kick myself in the butt and get back to who I was. I wonder what Jillian would say to me. She says that the problems are deep down inside and we have to face them to get through and lose weight but, how do you do that.
Well, I'm gonna go make myself a cup of chamomile tea and read more of my book...The Lost Symbol