I feel FAT

Saturday, November 28, 2009

I' m in deep trouble. I'm back to the weight I was when I started my last challenge and I'm not happy about it. This is only the first holiday and the next one is worse, what am I going to do. With all the stress I'm under and now I found myself back to eating hershey kisses and not even paying attention to it.
I've even grabbed a cookie here and there and of course, I had to have pumpkin pie with cool whip (lite) but the cool whip was the least of my worries. I put on a pair of pants today that were very lose just a couple of weeks ago and I knew things were going the wrong way.

I KNOW what the problem is but I can't get back on track. I KNOW I eat when I'm sad and stressed so, why can't I walk away from it. This past week I really haven't been on my bike or elliptical, just cleaning. I know right where the weight is stomach......and what do I and the bad stuff on top of it. Comfort foods.

I'm trying so hard to stay up and happy for the holiday's and it works sometimes. I just wish they were over already. You know, they don't mean anything any more when you are the only one left out of your immediate family and the whole Holiday tradition is gone because you have a Son and DIL who are selfish and hold grudges. Yes, I know I have a "wonderful" daughter and I love her to death but she has a life too. I hope she gets a proposal by Christmas or New Year too. They're cute together.

I re-read this and I sound like a whiner. I wish I could kick myself in the butt and get back to who I was. I wonder what Jillian would say to me. She says that the problems are deep down inside and we have to face them to get through and lose weight but, how do you do that.

Well, I'm gonna go make myself a cup of chamomile tea and read more of my book...The Lost Symbol

Till later.
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  • no profile photo CD2332407
    Cheer up. As Karen said. "Just move forward in a positive direction". Give yourself some "ME" time. reflect on what you want for YOU. Be who you want to be for you. I know it ain't easy, I'm still struggling with it too, but we can do it.
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    4214 days ago
  • KPACE7
    Just move forward in a positive direction. The past is the past. We start the new challenge with it's new opportunities this week. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

    4214 days ago
    I'm right there with you...I got into some binge eating just before the end of the Fall challenge and it kept up for awhile so I am a few pounds up from where I left off, not too mention my goal was to be about 25 less by the end of the year. But just have to pick ourselves back up and start again. For me; lately; I have been harboring some anger towards some friends and haven't been able to share my feelings so I take it out on myself. I am re evaluting things and just made some decisions of things I am going to do for myself to help me get through this. I am very used to spending the Holidays alone so for me, one thing I am not going to do is go to their gatherings where they always have so much junk foods that seem to trigger me into another binge. I know I offend some people, yet I need to take care of me so that I don't continue to sabbotage myself. Anyway, for what it is worth, I believe in you! emoticon
    4214 days ago
    Holidays aren't easy, even for those with no apparent problems. At one time they may have meant more work and a joyous time for getting together but now they are more stressful than fun. Ignore the season and just eat sensibly.
    4214 days ago
  • no profile photo CD6063397
    This is why you joined the group, It takes time to re-ajust,
    We all are working on one /or a few area's in our lives.. none of us is perfect. Keep trying to overcome...We all want it now. Including myself. I feel "Fat" and I am still in comfort mode my self. Learning day-by-day...will help you: The old saying: "it took time to put weight on and it takes time to take the weight off"....Remind your self--Your not alone... Just put one step in front of the other until you control that step and then move to step 2- work on it Ladyyy...This is what I tell my self... There is Hope in them hips...

    4214 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/28/2009 7:28:06 PM
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    Oh, my...please stop beating yourself up. Yes, you goofed; I've done it too. Now it's time to get rid of the "stinking thinking" and start a plan of action to help you do what needs to be done.

    Negative self-talk and negative thinking robs us of so much. I am certain you would chose to be be happy not sad, right? So feed yourself some positive stuff--you'll find it on Sparks.

    You don't have to be perfect, just try to do what you can everyday. Get a few Sparks friends you can call out for help when you need to. Write down what you want and how you can get it.

    Honestly, you can learn from this experience and grow stronger as well as smaller in size. I have been in your shoes more than once--I was too ashamed to ask for help, too stubborn to admit I couldn't do it myself. So I robbed myself of good health--now I have to fight hard to get healthy again.


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    4214 days ago

    My nickname is Jem but my real name is Jane I'd be glad to be your partner in trying to help you stay with the Spark lifestyle change during the holidays. My private e=mail is feel free to e-mail me if you want to become partners in this endeavor. I'll also see if I can sign you up as a friend during this time.

    4214 days ago
    Here's what I am trying to do. I know my body wants to be thin! Think about that Your body wants to be thin!!! Don't think of being on a diet. Before you eat any candy, cookies, or comfort food eat your fruit and vegetables. If you don't want to eat an apple then you're not really hungry. Think of that.

    But, most of all, love yourself. You are good and worth loving.

    4214 days ago
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