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I can see clearly now...

Saturday, November 21, 2009

I am constantly surprised by how much of my journey to health has proven to be emotional rather than physical. It seems that every day brings a new realization about my struggles with food and weight.

Last night I went shopping for my first reward - a pair of boots for reaching my first mini goal of 10 pounds. Of course once I got into the stores I found myself shopping for all sorts of things. I found a dress that I really liked and suddenly I heard that old familiar devil on my shoulder telling me to buy it, but buy one size smaller than I currently wear. "It's good motivation to lose weight" says that little red demon. Well I am proud to say that I finally smartened up and chose not to listen to that little *@#%!

I bought the dress, but I bought the size that fits me perfectly right now. Not for when I lose 20 pounds or magically blossom into a supermodel. I have to say, this is quite a victory for me. Ever since I was old enough to earn my own money and buy my own clothes, I've been buying clothes that are too small. You would think that I would have learned my lesson before now, but for some reason I kept doing it. I wanted to believe that somehow smaller clothing would change my eating habits. Wow. What was I thinking??

The good news is that I finally clued in and realized that the stockpile of small clothes in my closet did absolutely nothing to help me lose weight. Now that I know that, I can stop doing it and get on with making the most of the way I look right now! I don't need to wait until I lose 5 pounds or 40 pounds or anything. I am a strong confident woman with a unique style. What could possibly fit me better than that?

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    What a wonderful gift to yourself! emoticon

    3613 days ago
  • DBELLE39
    Way to go on seeeing the light in that you should live for the day in which you have. Don't stress over yesterday or tomorrow, but live for the day!
    3613 days ago
    awareness is a gift in itself don't ya think?what a gift u are receiving and giving to yourself emoticon emoticon emoticon wishing u a great a happy thanksgiving..trish
    3613 days ago
    Right now is all we have ~ kudos to you on your success and new found awareness!!

    3613 days ago
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