As much as I can chew
Friday, November 20, 2009
I got off to...well, not a *rough* start exactly here at sparkpeople. Maybe I should say I got off to an *unstructured* start. I've been doing this for about 3 or 4 weeks now and have decided to stay in the fast break stage while I catch on to how things work around here and-- more important-- to making some lifestyle changes. Truth be told, I haven't really made that much of an adjustment to my eating. I have, however, logged onto the site every day in order to soak up as much as I can to prepare myself for making a full-fledged commitment to weight loss once I'm ready.
I've struggled with weight my entire adult life, and if there's one thing I know for sure it's that I set myself up for failure when I try to take on too much too soon. I tend to go into something hardcore and end up biting off more than I can chew. Then I get overwhelmed and give up.
This time around I've decided to take things really slow since I want this to be a positive, lasting experience. Today I decided on one goal for the week and one goal only: before I eat anything, I'm going to ask myself "Why am I eating this?" Am I actually hungry, or is this emotional/boredom/automatic eating? I was really angry at myself at first for not being able to commit to more than that in Fastbreak (particularly limiting calories and writing down everything I ate) but I've come to realize that my best longterm strategy will be to take things slowly and work on one goal at a time. It's really all I can do at the moment.
So I'm going to work on that one goal for now and pause to reflect before anything goes into my mouth. If nothing else, I am grateful that-- for the first time in my life-- I am able to be *honest* with myself about weight loss and take on only as much as I can chew :)