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For the first time in a long time I feel ready

Friday, November 20, 2009

The last 2 yrs since my son was born I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride. It wasn't just trying to cope with a new baby and being a single mom, but starting a new and more stressful position at work, going through but ultimately surviving 3 layoffs at work, taking college classes, personal relationship difficulties, and just the day to day struggles that everyone faces, had unfortunately taken there toll. I did not handle it well. I turned to addictions, such as food being one of them, to numb myself from going through unpleasant feelings.

Now I finally feel ready to face those things that I couldn't before and a feel better and freere now than I ever have. I am ready to take on new challenges and learn from them. I am learning to not hold onto and criticize for all the mistakes or setbacks I have, but to grow and learn from them and try to make myself a better person everyday. I will fall again, but hopefully it will ony be for a day or an hour, rather than for years. I do not want to be stuck, I want to move on. I guess this is my New Years resolution, but I am starting early because really, life is too short. Why wait? I look forward to sharing this with all the supportive members here and learning from your stories and struggles too.
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  • MAMACAT2_3
    I am pretty much in a similar place right now in my life, so I can totally relate!! It is hard to focus on ourselves when life is so stressful, but I guess if we want it bad enough we can do it! :) I am very much an emotional eater especially when I'm stressed out. Good for you for taking the steps to get healthy! emoticon
    3103 days ago
  • TORNADO40
    Your son is so cute! I have been at this since June and plan on behaving over the holidays. There is no sense in eating like a pig and then having even more weight to lose when the new year begins.
    Good luck...
    3133 days ago
  • SERENEMOM71
    I like your attitude! I am struggling to lose weight that I have gained over the last two years after I lost 70 pounds - a lot of it gained from steroids that I had to take for a chronic disease I have, life stress's, you name it! I, too, am going to look forwards, not backwards, and plan to celebrate my life with things other than food!

    The best way to celebrate my life, for me, is to love myself and take care of myself, do things that bring health and joy to my being and soul - no matter how large or small, and to bask in the light of my Higher Powers (whom I call God) love, strength, and healing power.

    So hang in there, you have lots of support. I believe we can lose weight with the tools from this website and the support of others and our Higher Power.

    Take care. Peace, Joy, Love,
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    3133 days ago
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