For the first time in a long time I feel ready
Friday, November 20, 2009
The last 2 yrs since my son was born I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride. It wasn't just trying to cope with a new baby and being a single mom, but starting a new and more stressful position at work, going through but ultimately surviving 3 layoffs at work, taking college classes, personal relationship difficulties, and just the day to day struggles that everyone faces, had unfortunately taken there toll. I did not handle it well. I turned to addictions, such as food being one of them, to numb myself from going through unpleasant feelings.
Now I finally feel ready to face those things that I couldn't before and a feel better and freere now than I ever have. I am ready to take on new challenges and learn from them. I am learning to not hold onto and criticize for all the mistakes or setbacks I have, but to grow and learn from them and try to make myself a better person everyday. I will fall again, but hopefully it will ony be for a day or an hour, rather than for years. I do not want to be stuck, I want to move on. I guess this is my New Years resolution, but I am starting early because really, life is too short. Why wait? I look forward to sharing this with all the supportive members here and learning from your stories and struggles too.