Facing the facts-I'm being lazy
Thursday, November 19, 2009
I quit paying attention again. I ate what I wanted, when I wanted, as much as I wanted. I didn't bother to make time to exercise, but I had time to play video games. I got lazy. Sure I was tired, sleep deprived, I could come up with a hundred excuses, but the fact is, I got lazy. There's always something that I can use for an excuse. I'm in charge of what I put in my mouth, I'm in charge of where I place my foot for my next step. Sure I could blame: demands of family, demands of job, health, weather... Still, the fact is I made a choice. I haven't had breakfast yet. I'm at the intersection of a new day. Will I choose the healthiest choice I have? I'm blogging to be conscious of my choices. Laziness is wandering around the fridge and settling on what sounds good - and if that doesn't 'satisfy the hunger' (ha, as if I ever let myself get to hungry!) I'll graze for something else. Salty or sweet seems to be my biggest guidance these days. As far as where I place my foot for my next step, will I do stretches in my free time or surf the net. I was going to make myself take a walk (haven't exercised in weeks), was slow out of bed and only had 5 minutes of choice left ( I have 3 kids), I started to say oh well, it's too late...AGAIN. I started to feel grumbly. Then I ducked out the door and took that 5 minutes in a walk. It was fresh air, morning breeze, it was a reminder of how amazing the world is, the world outside of the boxes I'm wandering around in (buildings). It was a reminder of how freeing moving is. I was warmer, happier, and more conscious - more conscious of choices I have. I've been acting unconscious, not paying attention to the choices I'm making - except to satisfy a whim. We are so overabundant we live by whims - too often. 5 minutes woke me up. I want to make conscious choices. Again. I let myself get swept up by the busyness - became the busyness punctuated by exhausted whims. I forgot the fullness of the conscious journey - the fullfilling sense of eating produce, a strong exercised body, an awake mind - with room for creativity (instead of video games). 5 minutes reminded me.
Now to be conscious with the next 5 minutes - or 15. We are so lucky to have so many choices. We are lucky to even have clean water, when so much of the world doesn't. We should honor that gift of a good life with good conscious living. I know that a conscious 10 minutes of stretching and breathing is a whole lot longer and fullfilling that 30 minutes playing a video game or watching tv-being unconscious, basically. Now off to a fussing baby, a conscious next 5 minutes and choosing breakfast, instead of wandering in busyness.....