Thursday, November 19, 2009
Again I have to start over. Again I have to set up goals. Again I have to look at myself in the mirror. Again I have to practice what I preach. Again I need to learn to like me. So many agains...Where to begin?
I am tired of letting myself down. That is what hurts the most. Not that I let anyone down. My husband still loves me, my kids still love me, I do not still even like me. That is what hurts. The only person I truly am hurting is myself. Why do I do that? Because I do not believe in myself. Funny thing was that this morning, I told my client that if she does not believe in herself, who will believe in her. I also mentioned that she should not compare herself to others...it will only make her feel worse...
So I can tell people about all of this, yet I can not do it?
That does not make sense...but then again it does.
Time to start over again. Maybe this time not take it one day at a time, but one hour at a time.