I'm on my side this time...Who would have seen that coming? :)!
Saturday, November 14, 2009
If one thing is completely different about all the other countless times I've tried to lose weight, it's the fact that messing up does not equal failure. For some reason, I use to think the only way I would lose weight was with no mistakes. If I ate one bad meal, I would give up all hope and effort toward my goal. This time I'm not doing that. I just ate fried chicken, rice, and potato salad, but my motivation is still there. I'm human. I'm not a robot that you can program all the "right ways" to weight loss and expect perfection. I'm gonna slip up every once in awhile, but it's not a slip up if my mind is still on the prize. Before, eating this one meal would throw me over the edge. I would think that my strength was just in my imagination. I never realized where my true strength was. It's in my heart. It's in my mind. It's in me. I can feel it. Perfection does not equal success. Persistence and determination will get you to where you wanna go. Sometimes I would have determination but it wouldn't last long. Sometimes I would have persistence but it didn't have realistic goals to put any true determination behind. I have both this time. There's no "Wow you did bad today, you're never gonna get where you want to be" or "why do you torture yourself this way?". I'm giving myself a break for once. Who is perfect all the time? I can't do that to myself anymore. My heart won't let me. I'm done being my own worst enemy. My goal is to get to my true healthy weight. Beating myself up on the way to that will just break my chances of ever getting there. Exercising and eating good are only two great benefits on my journey. Even though I have only begun, I feel like I've won part of the war already. I've made myself an ally. I'm working on my side. I'm listening to my feelings. I'm not against myself. I'm gonna do this. One bad dinner is not gonna stop me. It's gonna take a whole lot more than that to bring me down. I'm stronger than that. For once, I'm on my side. It's gonna stay that way. For good.