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When times get tough

Monday, November 09, 2009

I lock the door

I've been working at my present job for almost a year now.
It isn't a job I ever thought I would take..one that I swore I'd never
apply for
I work in a convenience store

but wait, it gets worse

I work third shift.... 11pm to 7am

now.. place that store in a rough and bar filled area of town

add, that I work alone

sigh..yup.. it's tough

in an area that has nothing but layoffs and closings
I felt lucky to find a job that would hire me in a heartbeat,
give me full time and had benefits that I knew I would need
later on down the road..
it was only a few months that I came to find I did need those
benefits as my husband was losing his job after 27 years..
I picked up the medical and have a health savings plan now.

a week and a half ago I got robbed at gunpoint
I was afraid, but not scared... does that make any sense ?

a single man, face covered, calm, large automatic weapon
I gave him what was in my register..he left
the next night he robbed another place in town..
same as before.. middle of the night..
noone else around

this past Tuesday ..a week later.. he came back
he surprised me as I came around the corner and I got annoyed..
I had a milk crate in my hand and had to take a breath to not smack
him upside the head with it.. but I held my temper

this time he was just as quiet and calm
but he was also more relaxed.. acted as tho
he had total control

and I don't like that

I have not missed a night of work..not even after the robberies
the bosses all say.. you did good.. keep less in your register..
they fixed the "panic button" that alerts the police in case of
emergency so I won't have to call after the fact

but I've come to realize that I have to take care of myself in this..
because I'm the one who's there alone

the store is in a busy neighborhood.. people coming and going all hours
of the night
some from work.. some from the many bars..some just traveling through
but there are those times when there's noone in the store..and that's when the
robber has come

so.. I lock the door
and when someone comes I welcome them in with a smile
and less worry

I'm in control now
I refuse to be afraid
I refuse to be a victim again
its my terms...

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  • TAMINGDRAGONS
    Wow, you are one amazing woman!!! I am thrilled at how you have found control in this hard place at this time in your life. Wow again! We just never know what will be around the corner and I know that it´s vital that we don´t stop breathing - don´t give up or give in. You sound sooo like my little sister - she is a hard worker and seems to always find the fortitude to go on, no matter what! I think you deserve more than this, but I´m going to give you a pocketful of stars!
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  • BUTTERFLYTOUCH
    Praying that all goes well for you!
    3968 days ago
  • KINGDEVIL
    good luck
    3968 days ago
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