Crawling out from under my rock.

Sunday, November 08, 2009

Well...the past few days have had me in cave mode. I've been under the rocks and snoozing with my white cat. Today I crawled out, did laundry, and am going shopping for food and other house stuff.

I have been in contact with another old friend that I haven't talked to since the late 80's. I met him when he was a Mormon missionary in this area and we became good friends. Then life intervened, missionaries return home to where they are from and we kinda lose touch. So I did what I do...looked him up on line and we are back in touch again. It is awesome to find old friends and rekindle friendships. I guess it is a blessing that I have time to do that now.

I seem to be alternating between funk mode and alive mode. The good thing about both is that I am getting a slew of reading done.

I canceled my date for this weekend. After a few e-mails, I got totally creeped out and listened to that. I don't want to end up on the 6 o'clock news for the wrong reasons. Aside from that, I have had a few nice e-mails from a few dating sites and am enjoying the process. One potential date is a chef...can you see how that could work? He loves to cook....I love to eat. A match made in heaven! And so far, nobody has run screaming for the hills when they find out I am vegan.

My neighbors from across the street came over Thursday night for supper. I made my signature Vegan stew with cornbread. It turned out awesome. I also made a gluten free, vegan chocolate cake with vanilla icing, The cake was tasty....but a funny thing happened. It was fine when it came from the oven. The toothpick test showed it was done. I let it cool and put it on a plate and frosted it. Later, when we went to cut the cake, the frosting made it gooey. I should have made this cake for halloween with blood red frosting as it would have made an excellent, gooey, frosting runny, disturbing, halloween kind of thing. We all laughed about it.

Have you ever wanted to do something, start doing it, then are almost immediately bored with he whole thing? I am an avid World of Warcraft player. I love the game, my friends there, the quests and story arcs. But lately, as soon as I sign on I want to be off. Nothing holds my interest. I don't feel like interacting or questing. I miss that. I'd like to have that back. I talked friends back to the game who had left and now, since mom died, I am the one who has no desire to be online except for the specialty quests. The Halloween stuff is always fun and Great Father Winter is coming up with presents under the tree for all and cool Yule type quests to do. But now, since I am in between the special time of year events, I have no desire. Ugh!

Well....that is my news. I am out from under the rocks for now and enjoying the sunshine. The rocks may call again later. If so...that is OK. I have more reading to do.
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
    Ahhh .... Funny thing, Death. It becomes a transition not only for the departed but for the living as well. I can only imagine how your moods shift from day to day, but I can feel it all over Spark, too. Maybe it's winter's swift approach? Even here in hot, sunny Beirut, the short days are affecting my moods and making me crave good books, and hot cocoa. (No wonder the Snakes underperformed this week! *LOL*)

    Enjoy reconnecting, listen to that inner voice, and do what makes you happy.

    4206 days ago
    Great to hear from you Kerry...and you sound like you are bouncing back...and forth too, but mostly moving forward. Nice to smile again over your blog!

    4207 days ago
    I know what you mean about being avid about something for some time and then abruptly losing interest. Just go with what keeps your interest right now. If you find your interest returning, you can always go back later. LOL--WOW isn't going anywhere soon.

    As long as you still have "alive" days, I figure you're okay. emoticon We're here when you come out of the rocks. :)
    4207 days ago
    I'm sure the "alive" says will outnumber the "funk" days soon. You're definitely making good progress.

    Good call on canceling the date - icky vibes should be trusted.

    I don't know much about WoW personally, but I do know that for some people it can be way too addicting. While you're still dealing with all of this may be a good time to step away for a little while.
    4207 days ago
    I hope the "alive" days will become more and more frequent, and the "funk" moods will slowly fade away. You are doing an amazing job, and it sounds like writing about it and getting support from your Spark Friends is helping!
    4208 days ago
    I am glad to see you continuously coming out from underneath the rocks! As far as the WoW, maybe give it time. You have had a lot to deal with lately and possibly suffering from depression(a mild case) so the joy you once found isn't quite there. I know you will go back to it, and find it just as fascinating as you once did. Give it time!
    4208 days ago
    glad you are out from under the rocks! good for you for listening to your gut on the date.
    And you know how i feel about WoW...i think its GOOD that you are there less!!

    4208 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.

More Blogs by ELVENSONG1