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Friday, November 06, 2009

and yesterday was an awful one. i had my yearly exam yesterday, scheduled for 9 because i have to be at work at 11:30, and i figured she'd have me out of the office by 10:15, 10:30 at the latest. i had my lunch packed at home, to pick up on my way to work from the doctor's office, and i hadn't ate any breakfast, because i thought i'd have to time to eat before having to go to work. nope. she didn't come into the office until 9:30, and hadn't even done my exam by 10:25. at that point i stated that i wasn't trying to rush her, but that i had to leave by 10:35... they had me out of the office at 10:45 which meant i now had no time to stop at home and clean myself up, grab my lunch or eat some breakfast. i had to FLY to work. no joke, i was driving like a jerk, and i hate driving like that. stress levels were soaring. to top it all off, i had told her that for the last several months i've had some pain in my right breast. i had noticed a lump there last year and she brushed me off. when she touched it this year, she's like, yea something's not right there.... the whole time she kept touching it and it hurt so bad. she said i need to go for an ultrasound next week, so that's what i'm doing next wednesday. i'm trying not to think about it too much. it'll prolly be fine. but my breast hurting all day is a constant reminder. so.. yea.. yesterday sucked. i cried my eyes out on my way home, walked into the house with mascara all over my face at 8:45pm, ate chicken noodle soup, watch The Office, and went to bed. so today is a new day. i'm going to put yesterday out of my mind. gonna buck down and do some overtime today, so i'm working 11:30 to 10, be home by 11pm, go to bed so i can wake up at 5:30 tomorrow, work 8-4:30, and work sunday which is usually my day off from 9:30-5, work 9-8 on monday, and 11:30-8 on tuesday, and then have next wednesday off. ahhh...LOL. grindin!!! hope all of you have a great weekend!

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    i hope you are feeling better. please let me know what the results of your tests are. will pray for you all the way from this side!!!!
    3971 days ago
  • JENB_121
    Sorry to hear your day was so crappy. Why do doctors even make you book when you just end up sitting there for so long waiting?! I'm sure they'd get annoyed if they got the same treatment.
    Good on you for being so positive. Hope you had a good sleep and woke up feeling heaps better.
    3971 days ago
    Ugh! *HUGS*!!! Today is a new day and I hope it is better!
    3971 days ago
    It isn't what you do for ONCE, it's what you do EVERYDAY that counts!! Sounds like you are way to overbooked and stressed. I think it comes with age, to slow down and take it easy. I don't know why but you don't learn that at a yound age. Don't worry about it, UNTIL you have something to worry about. I had a scare a few months ago, and I just decided to not worry about it, until I have a reason to worry. Fortunately, it worked out for the good for me. Beside they say stress ages you, so you don't want to get a wrinkle, do you? I know at my age, I don't!! Take care!

    emoticon Carol
    3973 days ago
    I agree.. put it out of your mind, for now! I wonder why it hurts though... because of the poking and proding of the appointment?

    I know tomorrow will be a better eating day! DOn't worry yourself about that Babe! One day off isn't going to cause too much damage! Just get back on track when you can!!!

    You'll be in my prayers, Girl! I'm sure you're fine! I hope it's nothing!
    3973 days ago
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    Wow - such a busy work schedule! I can understand how u feel tho. Back in 2004 or 2005 my nipple started leaking, out of nowhere! I wasn't pregnant and never had been pregnant so it freaked me out! Went to a specialist, got a mammogram at like age 22,23 and everything turned out ok. No one could explain it. Around that time I was having problems with my then husband (now ex-husband) - I was ready to have children, he wasn't, and didn't even seem like he wanted children at all now that we were married. Long story shot, I think my mind had told myself I was so ready to have kids that I started producing breast milk. Now, I have had 2 beautiful children with a wonderful man! Anyways, the moral of the story is - ur mind is a very powerful thing! Use it to ur advantage! emoticon
    3974 days ago
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