Ten pounds down and I'm scared

Friday, November 06, 2009

I weighed in this morning and I'm down 4.6kg, a little over 10 pounds, since I started here on October 4th. I'm thrilled - after all, I set myself the task to lose 10 pounds by Christmas, and here we are and it's the first week in November. It's all been a very educational and fun journey so far. But here's my worry. I have been here before. Set myself a goal. Been there, got the tshirt then given up. Losing weight, exercising, running. You name it, I have set the goals, achieved them then given up. Why is that? That's what I've got to figure out if this time it's for good.

My 'real' goal is to get down to 69 kg, a healthy weight for my height, and right now it really feels like I will get there if I carry on doing what I have been doing. But I also know my weaknesses. I'm hoping SP will get me through this next hurdle. I haven't been less than this weight since before I had my children (16 plus years now). Who will this 'new me' be on the other side of 70kg.

I think I'm nervous but excited to meet her. And determined.
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    With SP you will do it because it gives you support all the way, even at maintainance. On the bottom of your your start page there are stages of your SP journey, you can go up a level if you're ready and SP gives you articles and hints and tips to read and learn from them. I've learned a lot already.
    4121 days ago
    Thank you so much for posting about your chocolate eating strategy on my blog page :) Looks like we're both in a similar place - battling to find the reasons behind what we do and to stay on track to live a healthier lifestyle. I'm glad you blogged about your own challenges. Maybe together we can help each other and others to find solutions that will become fixtures in our loves. They do say you create a new habit by practicing it for 30 days? Let's keep collecting strategies and trying them out and encouraging each other, and maybe the fear and self destructive-ness will lessen and go away!

    CONGRATULATIONS on your wonderful success so far!!!! emoticon
    4131 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/6/2009 7:12:11 AM
    Hey....I so feel the same way. Here I am having lost 27 lbs in 3 months. And I constantly live in fear that I will gain it back or this will be it. That any day I will let all the overwhelming temptations, and stress will take over. And BAM I will be fatter than I originally I was over 215 lbs and or I will constantly stay in the 180's and never get lower. So I guess we have to celebrate and pat ourselves on the back. But at the same time give ourselves a bit of credit, and mentally cheer ourselves to continue steadfast. From the bottom of heart I wish you the best of luck! :)
    4131 days ago
    Congrats! Before Christmas! emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    emoticon Yay for meeting your first goal! Hopefully by recognizing the weaknesses you mentioned you can take action to avoid the pit falls you fear. I think its awesome you've lost the first are on your way! Keep up the good work! emoticon
    4131 days ago
    This time you can do it!
    4131 days ago
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