Ten pounds down and I'm scared

I weighed in this morning and I'm down 4.6kg, a little over 10 pounds, since I started here on October 4th. I'm thrilled - after all, I set myself the task to lose 10 pounds by Christmas, and here we are and it's the first week in November. It's all been a very educational and fun journey so far. But here's my worry. I have been here before. Set myself a goal. Been there, got the tshirt then given up. Losing weight, exercising, running. You name it, I have set the goals, achieved them then given up. Why is that? That's what I've got to figure out if this time it's for good.

My 'real' goal is to get down to 69 kg, a healthy weight for my height, and right now it really feels like I will get there if I carry on doing what I have been doing. But I also know my weaknesses. I'm hoping SP will get me through this next hurdle. I haven't been less than this weight since before I had my children (16 plus years now). Who will this 'new me' be on the other side of 70kg.

I think I'm nervous but excited to meet her. And determined.