Thursday, November 05, 2009
I feel lately like I am just going through the motions. I have days that are pretty good, and I have days where I feel I am just on auto-pilot dragging through the day. I never know excatly where the change comes from. Yesterday was a good day, today I woke up in a funk and don't want to move. I know it is probably greif related. There are times when I'll be driving to or from clients and something fleeting will hit me and I'll get ckoaked up, I still for the most part feel that mom is here even though I know the reality. So, I am just putting one foot in front of the other and getting by as best as I can. There is one difference. I am keeping up with housework like never before. Maybe that is my current connection with mom. She always wanted the house to look good and was forever cleaning.