Time to re-evaluate
Sunday, November 01, 2009
I have decided it is time to re-evaluate my goals and desires for my weight loss. I have been living in my private pity party long enough (a couple weeks and I am sick of it) and have decided to review everything. I took a hard look at myself and realized that if I do not come up with a plan and stick to it I will never get back to where I want to be. I have updated my Spark page, added pictures of myself which I have never done since I don't like to see pictures of myself. Reminds me of how much weight I have gained. Inside I still feel like my normal self, not my overweight self. I feel like the woman I was until about 9 years ago. When I see a picture I am horrified by how much weight I have allowed myself to gain. The worst part is, my initial reaction when I was looking through pictures was to get a snack...how crazy is that? I realized I will need to do some cognitive restructuring there. By the way, I did not have the snack :)
Today, I am starting over. New day, new month, new year (just had my birthday last week). I am going to start tracking my food again and stay in my calorie range. I am also heading to the treadmill when I log off and plan to start walking at least 5 days a week again. I always feel better when I exercise and it seems like the toning sometimes helps more than the actual pounds lost. I am also going to plan some short term goals and note them on my sparkpage to remind me of what they are. I posted the pictures to remind me where I am starting and where I plan to end up. My goal weight is based on my previous weight that I was comfortable at. It is within my healthy BMI and I felt confident at that size. When I cleaned out my closet I saved the suit I am wearing in my goal picture so that I will know when I have reached my destination. Hopefully along the way I will pick up healthy habits that will last the rest of my life.