Monday, October 26, 2009
All weekend long I worried about how I was going to get through November without my Social Security check. I filled out paperwork for both food stamps and to file a waiver regarding the overpayment that Social Security says they made and I am contesting. I worried about having to call my mortgage company to discuss options since I wouldn't be able to pay my mortgage. I worried about my health insurance, Medicare, utilities, everything. I was in panic mode. This morning I drove in the pouring rain to Taylor to file for food stamps. I then drove to Georgetown to drop off my waiver forms. I got home, procrastinated a little, then finally started to make my phone calls.
After talking with the mortgage company, I sat and stared at my budget. After playing around with the numbers, I realized I was going to be okay. All I had to do was cancel my automatic payment for the mortgage, as I won't have all the money I need by the time it gets deducted. As long as I pay it by the 15th, I'm still considered current. It will be tight, and unfortunately will still need the food stamps, but it is going to be okay. I keep checking over the numbers because I keep thinking I added wrong! I was so panicked that I couldn't see the facts. I need to remember that I am not in control, and that God was probably up there laughing at me because I thought I was. I'm sure He has a sense of humor and I'm sure I provide Him with much comic relief!
Things are good. Life is good. I've stuck to my eating plan, have used my treadmill every day (even though it is dying--first the display went out, and now it changes speeds on it's own, which can be quite challenging), and just feel more positive. Maybe this will help me break that 10 lb. barrier. I have found that using SparkPeople has really helped me with a few things. It has helped me organize what I need to do to get to where I want to be and it has put me in contact with people who I would not have met otherwise, and who understand what I'm going through, without judging me. Gotta love it!