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A bad Year!

Friday, October 23, 2009

I can only think of one other year that has been as terrible as this one, however, even though this one seems so terrible, I have also had much good come out of it.

I call it a bad year becuase of all the horrible things that have happened in my life this year. First I am told I can't walk & excersise like I'm accustomed to, right at a time that I was seeing so much progress, then my brother dies unexpectedly in july. It was only a few weeks later that my step mom whom I am /was close to, ends up in the hospital & dies a month later. Very devestating for my family & wonder if we will ever fully recover. then while I'm still on berevement leave my own mother ends up in the hospital!... I have been emotionally beat up & in the process of all this I managed to stop any cymbalance of working out. Need I even mention eating? My house has been the hub all summer long, thru all this grief, everyone has been gathering at my house, so fixxing meals that can be stretched to feed the multitude has been my only focus.

So now what? Well, I know I need to pick myself up & get back on the wagon & ride along, but I just am having a hard time doing that. I keep saying that "this week end" I'm going to get started & then I mess up & feel like such a failure. All the while I'm super unhappy w/ my body & just not happy with myself for being so weak. So I'm writing this blog. I' know I have come along a couple of time & said " this is it, I'm starting fresh again" & then something happens in my life & fail.... so
here I am again. I am starting fresh again. I am going to start recording everything I eat this week. Just like when I started this gig, I'm going to record for one week, then focus on a healthy breakfast for one week, then add healthy lunch for a week & the dinner.
The get in shape plan is to start back walking, very carefully. On top of that I'm going to add the boot camp video every other day.
So that's the plan. As far as my emotional health, I think that once I get started on my health plan I will start to feel better emotionally.

Ok, so all I needed was to vent & to say that I'm tired of all this stuff happening. I think its all at bay right now & that I can get moving forward. Wish me LUCK!
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    Thanks everyone, You are all right! Counting my blessings & seeing all the wonderful things I have in my life are what keeps me going. I feel determined & my motivation is coming back. I know that I can get up & get going. Thanks for all your encouragment.
    3132 days ago
    I cannot even image that after all you have weathered, all the people you have cared for and fed, you still feel WEAK? Maybe you are just a little too hard on yourself. I think you sound courageous and determined, and more than capable. I would love to be your Sparkbuddy so that I can see your progress and help you celebrate your victories, because they are just around the corner.
    I lived in Kelso years ago, then other places as well, finally settling in Vancouver, so we are neighbors! LOL
    Keep your chin up and recognise your successes as often as your failures. emoticon
    3133 days ago
    On the other hand, you have a close family, good friends, and a wonderful house. You have Sonny, two cats, and a pug who adore you.

    Focus on those things and the other things will fall into perspective.

    Let's get together soon!
    3133 days ago
    Your back that is an important step in the right direction.
    With all the upsets in your life this past year you have probably put everything and everyone one ahead of your needs.
    This is your time now to concentrate on you and your health. We are here to help you along the journey to a new you.
    Stay focused on what is important to you and keep your sight set on your goals. You can do this!!! emoticon Sandy
    3133 days ago
    emoticon So sorry you have had such a bad year!
    Welcome back! Good luck! You can do it!
    3133 days ago
    Good luck! You've had a terribly difficult year, and I do understand (lost 4 family members, my dad, grandma & 2 uncles, all in 13 months), please remember to take care of yourself even as you're trying to take care of everyone else. And above all, be kind to yourself! Acknowledge that even small steps right now are a big deal. Get out and take a walk, eat that healthy meal, whatever, just don't add to the stress by expecting perfection. You can do this, one small step at a time, and I think you're right, doing good things for yourself is also going to help you heal. emoticon emoticon
    3133 days ago
  • MCCALI59
    You really have had a terribley sad year. But now (at tour own pace) you can start to think about you. If anyone deserves it it is YOU. Good luck and God bless you. Hang in there. emoticon emoticon
    3133 days ago
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