Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Ok, here I am again starting over. When I started working on my weight in 2007 I started at 368 pounds. I lost over 100 pounds stating that I would never go back to the way I was, eating, not working out and gaining weight. Well here I am at 331! I know I have to do this, yesterday I checked my blood pressure and if I had been at my doctors office I know he would have put me back on my meds after 3 years. I do not feel well, I am tired all of the time and very moody. I know this is hard but I know that I have to do this AGAIN. Today we started a new challenge on a team, to stay on our own program. Well I did go over my calorie range by 122 calories, but I haven't even tracked any of my food intake for an entire day for most if not all of the month of October, so I think it's a good start. I do have in 8 cups of water and yes I did get in 30 minutes on the treadmill. Here again I was disappointed with my workout. It took me 30 minutes to walk 1.25 miles when a year ago I could do 2 miles in 40 minutes.
I have to stop thinking of what I could do a year ago and concentrate on working on today. Last year, last month, last week and yesterday are in the past. I have to focus on today and today only. If I go over my range by a small amount ( stay under 2000 cals per day ) and if I get in at least 30 minutes of fitness a day no matter the mileage that is a good thing. I will learn to say "You have done an excellent job and keep it up" to myself.
I read a sentence I have written down so that I can see it at anytime. It is: My time and energy are to precious to spend on stress. I am not going to stress over not being "perfect". That is ok, I am not perfect, just working on getting better.
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  • JOYCEANN1955
    Your going to do it and how do I know this? Cause I have done it too and am doing it again! Like that one post-er just said to you
    Fall down 7 times get up 8!! You CAN and you WILL win this race!
    4197 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4326210
    If you only knew how many times it took for me to finally quit smoking... well, I can assure you it took a LONG time! You're back on track now. You CAN do this!! Just remember the Japanese proverb, Fall seven times, get up eight!

    I wish you the best of luck!!


    4199 days ago
    I too have started over a gazillon times - but you know what - we always have to remember that starting over - for the second or two thousand and second time is way way better than giving up.
    Eleven years ago I weighed 380 pounds and had pretty much given up on myself and on life in general - could not do a whole lot else. Today I weigh 220 pounds - and some times I never think I will be under 200 pounds - but I have to believe that it is just one decision at a time that will help me get there. I think I have lost the 30 pounds between 250 and 220 about 12 or 15 times - but I feel like I have finally surrendered to the process - just do what I need to do every meal, every snack, every walk - and have faith that will get me where I want to go.
    So - Congratulations on starting over - Congrads on doing your journal and staying in the game - Have Faith - you know you can do .

    Don't doubt your Faith - doubt your doubts !! emoticon
    4199 days ago
    I'm sorry you're not up to full power..... Did you give all your inspiration to me? I hope not......I'm back on track after that very nice phone call from you.......Except now, I'm getting a cold I think. emoticon Just remember-you did it before, you can do it again!!!! Sounds easier than it is, I know, but focus on 1 thing at a time and before you know it-you'll be back up to full power!!!!
    4200 days ago
  • MEME102
    I love your blog!!! This is another thing you need to do for YOU (aren't I good at giving orders???) Miss Bossy, that can be my middle name!!
    But you have figured it out--- don't focus on THEN..focus on NOW...and do it one minute better than the day before..that's all we are ever expected to do for ourselves! So it's ONE FOOT (teehee) in front of the other -- yes even DUCK FEET -- and keep doing what you're doing...and if you mess up? So what - there's tomorrow!
    You go girl!!
    4200 days ago
    yes! Work on getting better, one step at a tiem and you will SUCCEED!
    4200 days ago
    Goo for you. One day at a time is all we can do. Hang in there... We can do this!
    4200 days ago
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