A Bitter Sweet Moment
Saturday, October 17, 2009
I had been looking forward to wearing my red Liz Claiborne suit this morning. I had purchased it on sale for a business trip last March but there was no opportunity to wear it then. I wore it for the first time on Easter Sunday and found it uncomfortably tight, so I put it away thinking that I'd wait until I'd lost enough weight to wear it again. Today I was a sponsor at a Confirmation and was excited at the opportunity to be able to wear it comfortably. I had no doubt it would fit. I put it on, pulled up the zipper and stood there speechless. Oh my goodness, what was I to do? What else could I wear? It sagged off my waist. It was too big. It was a comfortable fit on my hips but I needed a belt for it to stay on my waist. It even seemed longer as it dragged beyond my shoe heel. I had to flap the top of the waist over the belt to keep from tripping. It was definitely not a perfect fit, but I was elated.
I was truly surprised and it was also a bitter sweet moment. Although my weight has generally moved downwards since I started with SparkPeople there have been fluctuations usually after the weekend. I have learnt to expect this because of my underactive thyroid. Also, I focused only on my weight and didn't pay much attention to my measurements. This morning I realized how far I have come. Strange enough, I felt a little disappointed that I never ever had a comfortable fit in one of the prettiest suits I have ever owned, but that's a small price to pay for the opportunity to wear even prettier ones in the future. It was bitter sweet for a moment but the bitterness is over and the sweetness has begun.