i am too embarrassed to weigh myself.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
i have no idea how much i weigh--i figure it's somewhere around 245-250 and lord knows i don't want to know anymore.
sizewise, i kept deluding myself into thinging that i'm about size 16. well, guess what--i've long migrated into W category, and 16W is quite tight on me. i don't fit into any of my pretty clothes. Yesterday i went through the closet and put my dresses and smaller bras away for the better times. I refuse to part with them, hoping that someday i get to put on my pretty lacy underthings under a frilly dress and that i don't have spare parts hanging under elastic. Not to mention the flab on the thighs--and the 4 layer belly. blah blah blah, love your body, blah blah, but now i'm just plain unhappy with how i am. one of those days i'll post a comprehensive list of why i need to do this AGAIN.