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i am too embarrassed to weigh myself.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

seriously.
i have no idea how much i weigh--i figure it's somewhere around 245-250 and lord knows i don't want to know anymore.
sizewise, i kept deluding myself into thinging that i'm about size 16. well, guess what--i've long migrated into W category, and 16W is quite tight on me. i don't fit into any of my pretty clothes. Yesterday i went through the closet and put my dresses and smaller bras away for the better times. I refuse to part with them, hoping that someday i get to put on my pretty lacy underthings under a frilly dress and that i don't have spare parts hanging under elastic. Not to mention the flab on the thighs--and the 4 layer belly. blah blah blah, love your body, blah blah, but now i'm just plain unhappy with how i am. one of those days i'll post a comprehensive list of why i need to do this AGAIN.

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  • CHERYLMIRABAL
    Been there, done that. My biggest enemy were/are pants that have an elastic waist. When I stepped back on the scale and saw 257.5 (I am only 5'3"), and my blood pressure has been climbing, I knew it was time to do something. Started dieting 3 weeks ago, and have lost 10 pounds, but already have started snacking. I just found this site, so maybe if I stay with the program, record measurements and weight, I will stay on track if for no other reason than I don't want to embarass myself! LOL! emoticon
    3991 days ago
  • FITWITHIN
    This is the beginning of a new you. Embrace the scale and get your beginning measurements and start moving towards your goal. To this day I still don't like the scale, but I refuse to allow the emoticon rule me. The numbers on the scale doesn't make the person that is inside. It's an outer shell that can and will be shed. One inch and one pound at a time. Patients and determination will get you were you want to be. Good Luck!
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    3991 days ago
  • KRISCRN
    I agree with everyone else. Grab a box of tissues, take a big breath and step on the scale. The take a good look at yourself in the mirror and pat yourself on the back for having the strength to begin to do something about it.

    Welcome to SparkPeople, and congratulations for taking the first step. You are seriously going to begin changing your life!!
    3991 days ago
  • GRACEISENUF
    That is why we are all here....WELCOME to SP! Weigh in and begin an exciting, life changing journey!~~~~~~~~WE CAN DO THIS! I've saved my pretty undergarments too...don't look back and concentrate on how great and healthy you are going to feel in no time!
    3992 days ago
  • TERRI77
    Welcome to Spark People!
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  • DIETINGDIANENC
    I too was in the same situation the last few weeks....knowing full well that I needed to get back on plan and motivated...but I just wasnt prepared mentally to do it.
    Finally this week I decided in my mind that since all my winter clothes were no longer fitting me and my beautiful coat that I wore last year came back from the dry cleaners sooo tight...that it was time to get back on the horse.

    Best thing to do is weigh in, dont put those pretty clothes and smaller bras away...hang them on the mirror...hang them in the kitchen near the fridge...anyplace you can see them and motivate yourself to just take small babysteps everyday and start over!!

    Best of luck! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
    3992 days ago
  • JAZZYDOC
    The first step might be to establish a baseline and to do that you need to weigh yourself. And then set some goals and make some plans on how you might reach those goals. You've gotta know where you are to start the journey to where you want to go. emoticon
    3992 days ago
  • WENDYI1
    Well, you ARE here!! So that's something!!

    I hope you make a good attempt at this, but right now you don't sound too convincing. Good luck, and once you get into this, you will be happy you did, and wonder why it took you so long!!

    Good luck with your weight loss journey!
    3992 days ago
  • LIVINAGAIN
    That sounds like me at a Doctor's Office weigh-in. I always told them,don't tell me how much I weigh. Then I just go on in ignorance is bliss mode....However, it is only bliss until you go up the next dress size....So, be strong my friend, and face your foe down. Don't hate yourself or beat yourself up. Tell yourself that you are gonna fight to bring the beautiful person within, out of her hiding place. emoticon
    Sending a prayer for your strength, and a Hug!
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    3992 days ago
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