I have to Vent
Thursday, October 15, 2009
I woke up today feeling a little blah and a little blue - no particular reason, except that I'm in a bit of a plateau again, and -- I don't know, sometimes you just feel "blah" for no reason.
I live with my son and DIL and take care of my grandson when they're at work. My DIL must have woken up in a bad mood too.
- She got up, asked me what all the noise was about. (I got a pan out of the cupboard, and it did make some noise.)
- She criticized what I was eating for breakfast (an egg sandwich on whole wheat muffin, with low-fat canadian bacon and low-rat cheese). She said that obviously wasn't on my diet.
- she asked if I would mind if she took a shower.
- She asked me if I would mind telling her what I did with her big pan. I told her, oh, I put it in the - (and then my mind went blank, I wanted to say pantry, but couldn't think of the word). She told me I was acting like a retard and I should go to a doctor and see if I had Alzheimer's. (I wanted to reply that I would have my possible Alzheimer's checked out if she would have her possible bi-polar checked out, but in the interest of peace, I didn't say it.)
- At 10:15 a.m., she sent Dylan (my grandson) in to ask if I wanted a taco. I said, no thank you, and she said, "I knew it."
- At 11, she asked me if I would mind taking her casserole out of the oven at 11:30, as she and Miles had to leave for a parent-teacher conference. I just looked at her and she said, "please don't let it get ruined." I said, "well, did you put the timer on?" She said, "never mind, I'll take it out " so she took it out early!
- I lost my temper then and said, "what's wrong with you today?"
- 11:15, she said, "we're going to the parent-teacher conference. Do you mind if we leave Dylan here, or should I take him with us?" I just looked at her, and she flounced away.
- 11:20, she said, "we're going to the conference" and I said "have fun" and she said, "Yes, someone else will tell us what we're doing wrong in raising our son."
I'm a nervous wreck, sorry to lay all this on you, but I have to tell someone, and if I tell it to anyone in the family, it will just cause trouble. I hope I didn't sound too petty, but it all added up and got to me.
Thanks for listening. As soon as they get back, I'll go for my walk and walk off the tension.