SPARKS HAS MOTIVATED ME AGAIN:
Thursday, October 15, 2009
I am so happy today when I read the blogpost about the woman who says that she read something that motivated her. It did the same thing for me today also. I have been losing weight all summer. Now that it is Fall season I have been eating up a storm. I need to stop myself right now, before It really get's outa hand? I cannot believe after I was feeling so good, I would backslide and start that again? It just showed me I cannot forget about my weight ever? I have just celebrated 1 year of sobriety off of drugs. I have to remember this everyday, otherwise I will forget that, and start using drugs again. I have to work hard on that. I don't know why I thought I didn't have to do the same with the weightloss situation. I know now, I need to get a grip on it, just as hard as I have on my sobriety. I will not forget where I came from, I just wanted my future to be a better one. I am not ashamed of my past. I just don't want to kill myself and maKe it my last year of life. I am proud of myself as is my family also. I cannot stop now, It would just let me down especially. I even asked God to help me lose weight. I am ashamed of that, cause this is something that I can handle. I don't need to bother God with my eating habits. I need to help others and forget about eating habits and help others. Then I will have something to be proud of. I think I know where I need to start from now on. I thank the lady with the blogpost I read today. I just want to help anyone else who is going back to their old ways. Don't wait until you really slip back into the old ways you preferred to forget. Okay, I am on my way out, and thanks for the help on my weightloss ideas today!