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Random thoughts in the wee hours of the morning...

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

My 3 yr old daughter woke up around 1145 and then after getting her settled, I was wide awake. I watched Biggest Loser and was once again amazed by the rally of support between team members(Still don't like Tracey though!). I was wide awake and since my Mom is in France, I decided to sneak over use her internet as well as pick up our winter coats-the high is going to be in the 40's on Thursday & Friday.

It's now 0244 and I'm wide awake. Fortunately, I am off today so I can get rest later. Around 6ish I need to get same daughter up & ready for pre-school. Then I have an appt to go get bloodwork done. I think I'm a little apprehensive about this. I've noticed that I've been having increased thirst-but I have also been trying to get my water consumption back up. I have been having memory loss as well as slight depression. When I had my GYN visit last week, my doctor & I discussed this. She asked me if I wanted meds-I SO DO NOT. I took Zoloft for around 4 months before I found I was pregnant. I HATE taking medication. I stopped taking it after I knew I was pregnant. My doctor said it would be fine, but I worried about what would be discovered later on down the road. Sorry. I digress. As I was saying, she asked if I needed meds and at the time, I felt that it was just me needing to workout. So she said, "It's situational". But when I was going home earlier this evening, last evening, I just realized that I was feeling kind of depressed. I have an appt with a new doctor for my physical but that won't be until December. I think I will try and contact my GYN and see if she can call & get me in any sooner.

I'm concerned about my mindset. I know that I need to lose weight and get healthy. However, I just don't seem to be doing what needs to be done. So maybe depression might be playing a role in this, although I hope it isn't.

Hopefully my bloodtests will reveal what's going on with me. In the meantime, I just need to take things ONE BABY STEP AT A TIME!
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    I believe in you my friend, I know you can do this! We will all do this together! emoticon emoticon
    3115 days ago
    I am sorry to hear that you are having these kind of problems right now..

    Do you have thyroid trouble...Sometimes they do things to our body..

    Hang in there and remember togther we can do anything.

    Let us know how things are going...We care..

    Your friend, maggie, co leader of stressed out moms/women gettin' healthy
    3116 days ago
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