Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Nobody's perfect. I guess I wanted this time to be that way, but of course, I'm still me. I still have an eating disorder. I'd love for it to be gone, but that's denial and it doesn't help at all. I baiscally have been "off the diet" since Thursday, taking opportunities to eat this and that, having that great old thinking of I better get it now, for tomorrow I may die(t). I realized today, in the midst of KickMax, that's I've just been playing with this in my mind. Here's some of what it says:
"You need a break. You've been dieting since August."
"You'll get better results if you eat a lot for a few days & then go back to dieting."
"I feel like I'm getting a cold. Maybe I should sleep in & not work out."
"Maybe my weight now is OK. I am only 6 lbs from my first goal."
"I can't keep this tracking up."
You know, that's all fine, but none of it helps me. It's so simple. Just do three things:
1. Log in all my food.
2. Stay within calories most days.
3. Exercise daily as I usually do.
So when my mind starts spinning away, I'm going to consider what it says as just rude interruptions and not start down that road. Keep it simple.
Oh, and just stay away from the sickeningly sweet crappy, bad-for-you food. Seems like if I eat a little bit, I feel like I want more the next day. And the next meal. Pretty soon I am just eating what's there.
Today was fine. Right on target with tracking, within calories, and exercised per usual. Tomorrow: more of the same.