today is the first day

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

I have a counseling appointment today. I thought is was yesterday, silly me. I am glad, I have A LOT to get off my chest. course I wont have anything left there since there wasn't much to begin with. So yesterday I spent teh day trying to sort out what I wanted to say to this guy, and then remembered...DUH!!!! I have one more day. Yesterday I was having an anxiety attack allll day!!!
am just about out of meds, and have had to resort to cutting them in half to make them last untill I can get more, which wont be until the 29th....AAARRRGGGHHH I will make it though, a frined told me of a place I may be able to get some, I will ask the counselor today. maybe he can give me ideas.
Have a few things running through my head. wish I could run that fast. dam I can't catch up to my thoughts...they run like a three year old who just stole candy. so I also apparently didn't get the other job, that's ok with me.I think I am to old now to be working 70 plus hours a week. Thirty years ago I did it all the time. and well I can barely get out of bed now, and just cant seem to think straight now.
I wanted the job for the money, But I guess (and hope) God has better plans for me.
I just have to leave it in his hands
Funny no-one is up but me and I smell BACON!!!!!! can hardly wait till I can have it again ok my fingers are writing as my mind rambles...I must get ready for wotk..Truck comes in today and I have to get done in time...
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
    I think it's wonderful that you are letting God take you where He wants you to go. I had an interview yesterday as well, and I prayed that God would reveal if this is where I'm supposed to be. If it's not, I'll be ok. Your counseling session will be so helpful for you and you'll be able to find that focus once you can get some things off your chest (loved your comment about that...very funny!). It sounds like you are already coming to some very healthy realizations, so the counseling is just going to enhance those and open doors to you that you can't even imagine. Best wishes for a good session!!
    4206 days ago
    Good luck on your counseling session.. I am so glad you have tons of things you want to talk about, that will really help you through the healing process.
    HUGS, Kathy
    4206 days ago
    I hope you have a wonderful day, and a good counseling session when you do have it. I agree; God has His plans for all of us.
    4206 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.