Stessing Out -NOT!
Sunday, September 20, 2009
It is interesting to me how a major event in my life can throw me completely out of whack. It seems I can work on my weight, as long as it is summer, I'm not working, and there is nothing else happening. Add just one more thing into the mix though, and I'm a wreck. So, a lot of my emotional stress is centered around my ability to control events and time. LOL! Just looking at that sentence is absurd. I can't control either. But, I think I actually am getting to a place where I can control my responses, and that ultimately, is my only option. If that's the case, piece of cake, I only have to deal with myself. I have gotten a lot better at just telling myself, I won't let it bother me. My son's wedding was stressful, and I did great with that, the start of the school year was stressful and I did so-so. Certainly better than I have in the past. At this point though, things really are okay. There are pressures, but I'm not fighting them. I think as a teacher, I am veteran enough to not take anything administration or the board throws my way seriously. I do my job, and move on. I've stopped analyzing and what-iffing the process.
So, it's all good. Last spring, as I was freaking about the wedding, a friend said to me, "why bother worrying?". Why bother, indeed. It was that simple, and it has worked. In the end, it all comes back to me, and I don't want that stress, so I don't have to accept it. The world turns and goes on with or without us, if I keep up at the level I've been over the past few years, it will be without me. That is definitely not an outcome I want.