Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Trying....for me it has a few different meanings these days.
Trying.....I had a very"trying" summer.
Trying....I am "trying" hard to get back into the swing of things with my eating and exercise.
This past summer was difficult for me. My daughter left for the summer (like usual) to visit her dad-I missed her so much. I cracked a tooth, had a root canal, ended up in the hospital for a few days, my man and I are not getting along at all, I got layed off from my new job I just got in April, I had a grandparent die in August and we are more than likely going to lose our house. I have been stressed out for what seems months now. For me, being stressed out equals out of control eating. There has been no satisfying my hunger lately. I really do know it is emotional eating. I have gained 14 lbs over the summer.
I went to get my hair colored today (gotta hide the grays). I couldn't help but stare at myself for an hour while my highlights were being put in. I couldn't believe the person staring back at me, was me. I thought to myself. What are you doing to yourself? You do not look like you. 14 lbs to me, looked like 30 in the mirror today.
Lesson learned. Tomorrow is a new day. I will be trying my best to get back on track.