Tuesday, September 08, 2009
i had a really cool moment today. i had the day off, so i slept in, hit the gym and had a great workout, and then later on in the day, i found myself thinking about things that i shouldn't be worrying about, and i became pretty bummed/emotional... next thing i know, i'm walking out of GNC with a bag and a smile on my face! it used to be when i would get upset about something, i would spend my money on something like fastfood or a dessert or a sugary drink. not anymore. this girl realized she was upset and went into GNC and stocked up on some new protein powder and fish oil... and it actually made me HAPPY! i think it's so funny how we change. it's funny how when someone hurts you or you feel sad/angry, you might have the urge to be like oh yea, well F this, and grab something really yummy ( but unhealthy) to eat to try to take your mind off of things... but if you really think about it, you're saying F you to your self because you're only setting yourself back. you eating a donut because you're upset isn't going to fix anything. it certainly won't help resolve the situation. you might feel "good" in the moment that you consume it, but after, you'll probably feel angry with yourself for having lost control like that. i'm learning that discipline is something that can give you an unreal sense of pride. it's amazing. to be able to remain strong and stable when everything around you is falling apart... that sets you apart from so many others. and the part that i think is really pretty cool is that when you're THAT discplined with your nutrition and workouts, it shows. you don't even have to tell people. they already see it. they see how dedicated and in control you are. i don't think enough people really tap into their pride when it comes to the right things. your pride can lead you to victory. the key is to not let IT control you. you can't do everything in the name of pride, but it can, and should play a part in you reaching your goals.
anyway, i just wanted to share that moment that i had! sorry if i seem like i'm rambling! LOL