The second set.
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
Today I shopped for fall clothes. I started last fall as a size 12 and worked my way down to a size 6 that was hanging off of me when the warm weather moved in. I gave away my size 6's in March and purchased a spring/summer wardrobe in size 2's (when I could find them) and size 4's when a little extra roominess was appropriate.
I was thrilled with my new wardrobe but nagging doubts made it feel temporary - as smaller clothing has often been "temporary" in the past. Back in April when I was doing my major shopping while on vacation (yeah for Grove City, PA outlet mall!), size 2 was a thrilling new thing. I felt foolishly optimistic loading the car with bags of tiny things - half afraid they wouldn't fit by the time I got them over the border. That somehow in those last 400 km to home, the reality of more than 4 years of hard work, behaviour change, personal growth and commitment to health would vanish into thin air and I'd wake up to find I was actually back in size 18s. *poof*
But all summer, the clothes fit. They came out of the dryer and they still fit. They sat in the closet for a month and still fit. They went to the drycleaners and they came home entombed in plastic and, they still fit. It hasn't been an illusion - I've maintained this weight and my clothes still fit.
So, today I went shopping at my favourite outlet store here in Ontario. I headed confidently to the size 2 and 4 racks and chose a number of items to try on. They, too, fit. This second season of the same sized clothes is some kind of truth that this weight loss and maintenance thing is doable. I am, in fact, doing it. The second set of clothes is my proof.
I have 6 new pairs of pants to take to my seamstress tomorrow and a few days to move summer things to the back of the closet before the pants come back. As I make the seasonal change, I will not worry about saying goodbye to my lovely summer things - they will be waiting there for me next year and I know they will still fit.