Giving up

Monday, September 07, 2009

A few weeks ago everything seem to be falling into place. I found a hiking group I liked, I started a clinical trial which would help me sleep and I would even get paid for it, my exercise routine was working and I had actually dropped a couple of pounds after being stalled for a while. Then, I went on a really long and strenuous hike and hurt my knee. I stayed off my knee and thought I would bounce right back. Then I got sick and missed more days of exercise. Then, to top things off, my heroin addicted brother has moved in with my mom and me, and she has gone on vacation for a month and left me to deal with him by myself. Unfortunately, I manage my stress by eating and boy, that is one thing that I do really well.

I know that I have to pull myself out of this funk because no one is going to help me do it. But there are times that I just want to give up.

So, today, I will start logging back into SparkPeople and doing my SparkPoints and logging my food. Hopefully, my knee will hold up and I can go back to the gym.
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  • NOV112491
    I do know what you are going through somewhat. I too have knee problems and it limits me some days on what I can and cannot do. Durning the summer I traveled a lot so got off of my routine and it was so hard to get back into the swing of things. I started using Tylenol Muscle Aches and Pain 8 hour and that has been helping me more than the Lortabs that my doctor prescribed, so maybe you can try that. Just dont push to hard to fast, and you will get back to where you need to be. If you need to vent I am here, just email or send me messages here. emoticon
    3960 days ago
    Doesn't sound like you've given up - I think you know deep down giving up isn't the answer and that's why you came here. Keep your chin up and take things one day at a time.
    3960 days ago
  • 4CYNDI
    Wow! That's a lot of stress you are dealing with right now. You have made the first baby step forward by blogging and by starting to track your food again. Take exercising again in baby steps as well. Don't try to start back where you were before the injury/illness. Your body is still recovering, but I know you can get back on track. It's all a part of learning to live a healthy life, not just another diet.
    3961 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4419646
    It really is just 'one baby step' at a time, and falling down is part of learning how to pick ourselves back up.

    I know how hard it is for you when stress and injuries come into your life. I've been there too, and it's not fun. It's hard to stay focused on just taking care of "ME" first!

    Please don't give up. It's too important for you to keep yourself well. The injury will pass, and hopefully your brother will see the errors of his ways and seek help.

    Keep the Spark Burning! We're here for you.
    3961 days ago
    ok, one step at a time, one breath at a time. You know what you have to do for you -- stick to your guns!
    3961 days ago
    Just by writing about your difficulties you are showing that you haven't given up. Your legs are your biggest muscle group and give you the most bang for your buck exercise-wise, but there are some exercises you can do without involving your knee - like crunches and upper body strength training. Try to tune out all the "static" going on around you and focus on what you can control. Good luck.
    3962 days ago
  • MARIA702
    You can't control your brother or mother (for that matter) but you can control how you react to this stress. You are not responsible for them. Letting go of that responsibility will help you move on with your own goals. You know what you want for yourself- don't lose sight of the bigger picture- YOU! You need/want to get healthy. Stay focused and remember that each day brings with it the chance to start again. This is a safe place where you have friends who want you to succeed.

    It only takes one injury to throw off the exercise, just take it easy and don't be hard on yourself. Start again doing only the amount you can handle. You'll progress from there again in no time!

    You CAN do this! emoticon
    3962 days ago
    Never give up - never surrender! (from one of my favorite movies, Galaxy Quest). You have a lot of stressors - let loose of those you can't control (like your brother) and do your best. We are here for you! emoticon
    3962 days ago
  • no profile photo FLORINAD
    It sounds like you are on your way back. Dont give up.
    3962 days ago
    You are the only one who can do it but there are people out there that will listen and try to help you stress. So ask for help when you need it.
    3962 days ago
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