I blew it!!!!!!!!
Sunday, September 06, 2009
I completely blew it today! And once I blew it I just let myself continue to blow it. I took in WAY to many calories in today. I've been so frustrated because I haven't been losing and I've been working my butt off, and now I do this. I'm so upset. I almost want to go and make myself vomit. I've never done that before, but I've thought about it and today I could really consider it. GRRRR I'm so frustrated with myself. I want this so badly and I went and screwed it up. I feel my passion failing a little everytime I don't see any improvement. The doctors are offering me gastric bypass and I wanted it, but when I lost weight I wanted to do it on my own, now I'm wondering if I should just do the surgery.