Insecurity and Doubt

Thursday, September 03, 2009

I biked 8.63 miles last night in 30 minutes at the gym last night! My next goal is to do 10 miles in 30 minutes. That would be a 3 minute mile! Way cool! I never thought that I could ever last 10 miles on the bike, never. I really need to start dreaming bigger, and believeing in myself more.I have to get the words, "I can't" out of my vocabulary, because I keep proving to myself that I can. I'm still doubting my abilities every day. I think I'll plaster every available surface that I can find with positive affirmations, and maybe the message will finally sink in!!!
This morning I got back into the swimming pool for my waterwalking workouts. Wow! It was tough walking against the current after such a long break. I did my mile about 40 minutes, though. Some laps took less than a minute, some more. I stopped waterwalking because I thought it was too easy of a workout. I never had any achy muscles like I get when I work out on the treadmill or elliptical, or even the bike, so I discounted the benefits that I was getting. (DOUBTING myself again). Then I read an article that water walking gives you 4x the benefit over walking on land because of the resistance of the water. So, if you water walk for 15 minutes, it gives you the same benefit as walking for 1 hour on land. Cool. Now if you are walking against the current, I wonder how much more beneficial that is...Insecurity and doubt take their toll, they are absolutely detrimental to my success. I love the kudos, and encouragement that I get here, and from family and friends, but I still have such a hard time taking the compliments to heart. I'm sure it's pretty much the same with most overweight/obese people. When do we start feeling as if we're deserving, good enough. When are we going to stop listening to those negitive inner voices? What will it take?
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  • JEWELS571
    I know one thing, I think you are amazing, wonderful, loving, caring, funny, beautiful, and every bit worth all of what you are doing for yourself and YES YOU CAN! YES YOU WILL! YES YOU ARE!!!!
    3698 days ago
  • HILARY26
    i SO identify with you!!! it was like listening to myself talk reading your blog. every day before i get on my treadmill, i think, i'll never get in shape...or i'll never be able to walk for 30 min tonight. then, when the day is done and ive worked out AND eaten right i still find a reason to doubt myself. ugh!!! you can do ARE doing it! every single day you make a good choice, whether its eating right or exercising you are one step closer to your goal. congrats on all your success and progress. keep it up lady!!! i'll try to be more positive with myself now too. thanks for the reminder!
    3698 days ago
    I love affirmations! I had a set of postive affirmations on my fridge for a couple months! I read them everyday until I didn't need them anymore...I have noticed that the negative is creeping back in so thanks for the reminder...time to get them back out!
    3699 days ago
    I like your water walking idea! I had never heard of it before. But, I go to Curves three days a week and they use resistance machines so I see what you mean.

    One thing you could do is look at yourself in the mirror once a day (or more) and say I can!
    3699 days ago
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