Day 4 no smoking.. struggling bad

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

I am having such a hard time. I quit four days ago and I am struggling. I tried chantix and vomited all the time. I am currently on wellbutrin and that doesnt seem to be doing anything. I tried a hypnosis cd and that didnt help. Four days ago, I made a choice to quit. I felt so strong and now I feel so weak. I keep thinking just one cigarette, just one drag.. please.. I have not been able to leave the house because I am scared to be around smokers.I am having trouble sleeping so I am exhausted. I've been snappy with my family, when they havent done anything wrong. Weight loss?? Not a chance right now. I even called a hypnotherapist and that costs $600 !! I can't afford that. :o( I know it may not seem like it but usually I am such a positive person but not anymore. I don't even want to get out of bed.Can quitting smoking cause depression? I have smoked a pack a day for the past 15 years with two breaks in between. Pregnant with my daughter and chantix last year helped me last four months but I started again because I gained twenty pounds in 4 months!!! I am losing my mind... there has got to be a less painful way !! For the love of God !! I just want to smoke but then I'll feel like such a failure. Right now I'm so down in the dumps.. it feels like a no win situation. I am putting my story out there because I am desperate !!! emoticon
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    So, I am on day 4 of not smoking and I came across your post. How did things turn out for you? Were you able to fight and win this battle?
    2132 days ago
    I'm so sorry that the Chantix didn't work with you due to getting sick from it! I myself am using it and while I do get a little nauseous if I don't take it right away after I had my breakfast, it's nowhere near vomiting! Chantix is the miracle drug for me that helped me getting to my quit and having no problems at all vs. going 'nuts' when I tried quitting w/o Chantix.

    What helped me while I was still smoking to really ask myself every time I craved a smoke, if I *really* want this now or if I can hold out longer. Sure enough I went from 10-15 cigs down to only 2-3 until at the end only having 1 in the evening! (But the dwindling down for sure had to do with the help from the Chantix!)

    Hang in there!!! You can do it!
    Good luck!!!
    3188 days ago
    JC...I know EXACTLY what you're going through and what you're feeling my friend. I smoked since 1976 (senior in High School). I quit May 11th of this year. Most difficult thing I EVER did in my whole life. I had attempted quitting many times in the past but to no avail. I used the patch this time. Something to remember...the urge for a cigg only last a few minutes. Take some really DEEP breaths (in through your nose and out through your mouth ~ slowly). I slept a LOT. Especially during the first two weeks. I took naps...went to bed early...slept in when I could. You can't smoke or have the urge to smoke if you're sleeping! Do you have the support of your family? That can be a really big help!! Trust me, you don't want to take even one drag. Let me tell you why. I did. I gave into that incredible craving after 6 weeks of not smoking. And in hindsight, it was really stupid because I really didn't want that cigg...I just gave in to what I had talked my brain into wanting. It tasted AWFUL! It STUNK! It HURT my throat! And it does to this day. Yes, that one stupid puff and I was hooked again. I just got a prescription from my Dr. for the Chantix you talked about but I also got a prescription for nausea. I WILL quit smoking!! And so will you!! YOU CAN DO IT! Don't give in. You are in control. Cigerattes don't Rule YOU!! YOU'RE THE BOSS ~ NOT THEM. It's so very important that you DON'T give in to this desire because I know how you will feel. I have been there!! If you really want to quit, you won't. I'm online every evening. Please write me. I'll talk to you from experience. YOU CAN DO THIS!! Keep the faith!!
    3188 days ago
    Whenever you feel like having a smoke - do something! Get up and walk - do a workout DVD - drink 3 full glasses of water...ANYTHING and your desire will lessen as the time passes.

    Keep busy! That is the best thing to do. If you sit and think about it you will be closer to failing...but if you move and do something to keep you busy - something you really like - you will soon forget. Take up a hobby that keeps your hands busy...do the dishes...scrub the floor instead of using a mop...ANYTHING that will keep you busy for the time being when it starts to get hard and it will get easier.

    The biggest thing - and you already know this from your breaks - is time. Time is the hardest thing to deal with, but if you try not to stress about how much time it is taking, it will pass and you will get used to it.

    Just try to remember what you are doing for yourself is SO important! Keeping your lungs clear of the pollutants - staying alive longer in the end - and ultimately your body will catch up and get used to the fact it is over...no more smoking. I'm not going to say you will NEVER crave it again in your life...but you will be stronger for not and you will be PROUD of what you have accomplished. Hang in there! emoticon emoticon
    3188 days ago
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