What a Difference a Day Makes

Wednesday, September 02, 2009


I can't say today was the most stellar day with food--although it was a great improvement over the past few weeks. But today I fought back a LOT of urges to engage in all sorts of behaviors that are unhealthy for me. I'm amazed at how much I've gotten wrapped up in living my life on other peoples' terms, how much I've again based my self esteem and sense of worth and value on my usefulness to other people, how much I've relied on the good opinions of others to fortify me. Just ONE DAY of breaking away from that even the tiniest bit and I feel WORLDS different. Today I actually had a few moments where I felt genuinely happy, where I got in touch with the part of me that actually LIKES me and is able to like and enjoy my own company. I was feeling like this pretty consistently a few months back. It's amazing how quickly and easily we can slip into patterns that are old and familiar, despite the fact that they have no real utility in our lives anymore--and no matter how good a job we think we're doing at fighting or changing them.

Anyway, guess that's it for tonight. Just sort of felt like sharing that insight, I guess!

Tomorrow I go walking with my mother, and I'm really excited to get back into that routine.
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    Good for you! It's important to engage in some good, old-fashioned self-nurturing now and then :)
    3730 days ago
    I can relate. I am frequently my happiest when I'm alone because it's when I can focus on what I really prefer to do (and eat).
    3731 days ago
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    3731 days ago
    Y'know, that is a really interesting thought! I am definitely going to store that away, b/c I have a sneaky suspicion that I, too, put a lot of emphasis on what I do for others, or what others think of me. Hmmmm. Something to mull about. LOL Anyways, good for you, and keep up your thoughtful insights. :)
    3732 days ago
    good for you! emoticon
    3732 days ago
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    emoticon emoticon Every woman can gain something from doing what you and I both have done. emoticon

    Keep strong!

    3732 days ago
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