I'm trying to stay *Positive...I have no other options!

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

I haven't been on SP for a while now. I had such a busy summer. But as I am preparing to go back to school (from my 2 weeks break) and work, I'm having the most stressful weekend/week ever!

1- I found out that a friend of mine who went home to Jamaica was kidnapped and killed (slain actually, still waiting to find his head)..he was only 27!!
2- On Sunday, my bf had a terrible car accident
3- On Sunday night, my mom got terribly sick and could not stop vomiting
4- On Monday (yesterday), I found out that that a friend of mine had a heart arrest (due to diabetes-induced kidney failure) and passed away at the ER (in her pool of bloody vomit)..she just turned 30 and was planning her wedding!!
5- TODAY, I found out that my good friend who just got married lost her baby...she was 7 months into the pregnancy!
6- Just a few minutes ago..I found out that another friend of mine has a pancreatic tumor and is scheduled to undergo surgery shortly...She's only 26! Hoping and praying that all goes well...
7- My ex just called me to tell me how much he hates me and how much he wishes he never met me!

I FEEL LIKE YELLING & SCREAMING!! But I refuse to...I cried sooo much on Saturday (I didn't leave my bed all day) and again on Monday but I refuse to let these things bring me down anymore. So I'm trying to stay positive because I realize I have no other way of dealing with so much stress ALL AT ONCE!!!...aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hhhhhhhhhh..I have a terrible headache, but smiling has helped me...I can't sleep, I look like cr@p, like really ugly steamy horse doodoo + major headache and lingering insomnia..I don't really care, I'm miserable..officially...BUT I truly believe that things will get better...I know they will...

ADM, how much more can I take?? :'(..

~*This too shall pass*~
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    oh girlie, your blog was heartwrenching :( I'm sorry for your losses. I know its hard right now, believe me I do know, but I really encourage you to write a blog about the positives in your life right now...It'll probably be very difficult but they may act as anchor to get you through this terrible time. Take care of yourself and I'll keep you in my thoughts
    4247 days ago
    Thx Mari & Suzie!! It means sooo much to me girls! (((HUGS)))
    4247 days ago
    Oh my goodness Nia!! I'm so sorry for all of this heartache and loss! My prayers, thoughts and positivity are being sent your way and to also to your loved ones and their families. xo!
    4252 days ago
    Oh my goodness Nia!! I'm so sorry for all of this heartache and loss! My prayers, thoughts and positivity are being sent your way and to also to your loved ones and their families. xo!
    4252 days ago
  • MARI7167
    Wow, I am so sorry for all of the horrible things that have happened around you in the past week! It's hard for me to imagine! I'm just stopping in to give you a little encouragement and let you know that we are all here for you.
    Stop by and visit anytime.
    I'll be back to check on ya....
    Mari emoticon
    4256 days ago
    Thanks so much Gloria!! (((Abrazooossss)))
    4261 days ago
    Believe me when I tell you I know what you going through but Let me just tell you one thing Trust in God and The power of prayers truly those work. He can get you out of the storm and if you have FAiTH you can come out a winner. I be praying for you my friend and remember I am here if you need to talk. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4262 days ago
    Thank you SOO much ladies!! I *heart* my SP friends!! :)
    4263 days ago
    First of all i miss talking to you, and i am glad to know that YOU are okay.. Second i am sorry to hear about all your losses and grief you are going through right now.. You are so strong, NEVER give up...

    You are in my prayers..

    Keep your head up.. This too shall pass!
    4265 days ago
    Hey Sis!! Wow, you've really been through some craziness in the past few days!! Girl, you are in my prayers!! And you know what your right!! Things will get better. I believe that GOD has a purpose for everything.. I know for many of your friends things are not going well but it's not our plan it's GOD's plan!! My advice to you is to stand strong and have FAITH that GOD will pull your through the storm. My heart goes out to your family and friends!! Just know that your not alone!
    4265 days ago
    WOW omg, you'll be in my prayers definately, and things will get better. Let me know if you need anything, and stay strong!
    4266 days ago
    OMG, I hardly know what to write, to read all this! What cr@p to have around you! I hope that you can reconnect to your yoga practice, to breathe, to be in the moment, and to be grateful...yes, grateful, for all that your body does for you, and all that you are for all these people. May the Holy One hold close you and all those you hold dear.
    4266 days ago
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