i think i'm actually learning how all this works...
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
so, today on my agenda was running 2.5 miles. nothing daunting, and although i wanted to get up and do it this morning, i also wanted to run outside, and it was pouring. i checked the weather, and it said it was supposed to clear up this afternoon, so i planned on doing the run when i got home from hanging out with a friend and her little baby (sooooo cute), and before hanging out with another friend this evening.
after getting home, i was starting to talk myself out of running...i felt tired, it was still drizzling, blah blah blah. then, my friend who was supposed to come over this evening starting acting like she was going to flake on me, and i felt my mood start to sink. i was tired, frustrated with this person, and not AT ALL wanting to go for a run. i laid in bed. i had a snack. i considered having another snack, which would have led to another, and then another and then another...i know how this USED to work for me. sad? lay and eat. mad? lay and eat. bored? lay and eat. but i stopped myself.
instead, i got out my shoes and the rest of my running accoutrements and set out to take care of business. the run was a little tough at first, but i cleared my head and pushed through it...the hills, the uneven pavement, the drizzle in my face...and when i was done, i felt proud. proud, because i broke the cycle. i realized that my time being angry would be better spent out on the streets than sitting in my bed, eating cheetos and watching tv. i knew i would be ashamed if i missed my run, and telling myself that i would work out an extra day just would not cut it.
before sitting down and writing this blog, i had the realization that i'm actually becoming a healthier person, both physically AND mentally. the old me would have strapped on that feedbag. the new me strapped on some shoes and ran for my life. and i'm sooooooo glad that i'm the new me! 10K here i come!!!!!