i think i'm actually learning how all this works...

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

so, today on my agenda was running 2.5 miles. nothing daunting, and although i wanted to get up and do it this morning, i also wanted to run outside, and it was pouring. i checked the weather, and it said it was supposed to clear up this afternoon, so i planned on doing the run when i got home from hanging out with a friend and her little baby (sooooo cute), and before hanging out with another friend this evening.

after getting home, i was starting to talk myself out of running...i felt tired, it was still drizzling, blah blah blah. then, my friend who was supposed to come over this evening starting acting like she was going to flake on me, and i felt my mood start to sink. i was tired, frustrated with this person, and not AT ALL wanting to go for a run. i laid in bed. i had a snack. i considered having another snack, which would have led to another, and then another and then another...i know how this USED to work for me. sad? lay and eat. mad? lay and eat. bored? lay and eat. but i stopped myself.

instead, i got out my shoes and the rest of my running accoutrements and set out to take care of business. the run was a little tough at first, but i cleared my head and pushed through it...the hills, the uneven pavement, the drizzle in my face...and when i was done, i felt proud. proud, because i broke the cycle. i realized that my time being angry would be better spent out on the streets than sitting in my bed, eating cheetos and watching tv. i knew i would be ashamed if i missed my run, and telling myself that i would work out an extra day just would not cut it.

before sitting down and writing this blog, i had the realization that i'm actually becoming a healthier person, both physically AND mentally. the old me would have strapped on that feedbag. the new me strapped on some shoes and ran for my life. and i'm sooooooo glad that i'm the new me! 10K here i come!!!!!
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  • STINA6584
    You go girl! (I feel so 1998 sating that.)

    Blogs like that are what pops up in the back of my mind when I'm thinking about skipping a work out. I was in the same place today. I planned to get up and run this morning, but a) I overslept (setting the alarm is useless if you don't actually turn it on) and b) it was raining. Needless to say I didn't make it out this morning. I was exhausted when we got back from working on the condo and it was already dark out so I could have very easily climbed into bed to watch a few hours of Scrubs, but I decided I would take a short run. I only went 1.25 miles, but I really pushed myself. I made it back to my front door in 12 minutes...and that includes my walking warm up and cool down. I ran my mile in just over 9 minutes! WooHoo!

    You are amazing girl!! Keep up the hard work! You're gonna kick @ss at that 10K!
    3221 days ago
    Yay I'm so proud of you!!
    3221 days ago
    Good for you hun!! You are doing it, you're not just talking the talk, you're actually running the walk. Feel proud hun, and every other time, when the mood settles in that you just don't wanna, remember this feeling and go for it again. xxx
    3221 days ago
    Yay to the new you!!!!
    3221 days ago
    good job!! i KNOW that was hard, because i run too. i hadnt ran in quite awhile because i had gained this extra weight, but now im getting back into it. i ran 3x last week and this morning i ran also , i run a 3 mile loop in about 35-40 mins. point is, there seems to be a magic window and if i miss it, its like forget about it!! but you inspired me, yea you!! next time i get that apathetic lazy feeling i will push past it, i will remember your blog, thanks!!
    3222 days ago
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