Perspective - Will the real Lynn B please stand up?!

Sunday, August 23, 2009

The kids (pups) are in bed, as is my honey. The house is quiet except for the A/C coming on and blowing, the hum of the computer fan, the tick of the clock and the ice settling in my tea. Okay - so maybe the house isn't so quiet.

Or perhaps there is more than one reality/one perception.

I think this proves true when I see myself in the mirror.

Some days I see the body the insurance companies say is there - the one that is morbidly obese, a senior before 60, that a catastrophe might easily happen to at any given moment. The one for whom negative health patterns are not likely to change. Maybe I should just stay in bed and protect myself from anything bad happening.

OR my eyes are red from insomnia, too much time on the computer, and allergies I never had before. My hair and skin are dry like the desert I live in. My hair looks like its been in a bar fight and it lost. My muscles are sore from my workout the day or two before. I feel fat and bloated and nothing I put on feels like it fits. I feel distracted and spacey. My mind is unorganized and my good habits have deserted me temporarily.
I wrinkle my nose, squinting my eyes to change the focus. Maybe a long shower, scrub, and mind reset will turn things around.

Every once in a while, I pass a mirror and I glimpse my mother's face. Hi Mom.

Then there is the me I see in my mind's eye - late 40's, decent figure, warm smile, lovable. My clothes look good on me and I see I have a waist. My face is full of color. Even my hair behaves, emphasizing my bone structure. My eyes are clear and bright. I am ready for the day's adventure and can do anything I set my mind to.

These are the days I love - days bursting with potential, surprises, and small miracles.
On those days I need a perspective adjustment, I aim for these days.

Will the real Lynn B please stand up?! Oh - I am.
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  • LINDA!
    I understand. I actually met my Spark goal weight but in reality could stand to lose a few more. I have the same red eyes from insomnia, the face in the mirror is now the face of an older is rather scary. Where did the time go???
    3710 days ago
    I think the fogginess has to do with sugar drop because it tends to happen after meals or if I forget to eat.
    3711 days ago
    Boy do i undersatnd where your comming from I have always asociated this with PMS I go from feeling thin,happy,love what i feel like in my own skin to feeling frumpy,out of date,and if i could only breath these clothes are so tight.i too get the foggy head thing going on does this last any certain periode of time for you or is it all the time?
    3711 days ago
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