the last month...
Saturday, August 15, 2009
have been full of up and downs as far as exercising and eating.I would either do really well with exercise but would do horrible with food or really well with food but bad on exercise.The last couple of weeks actually month has been stressful and emotional for me. I have had a I don't care attitude toward every aspect of my life from school to exercise to eating right. I have been worried about my job all summer and then word came from the school district and then from the office manger of the school I work at that my hours would in fact be cut from 7 hours down to 5 or 4 hours due to the state of California running out of money. So I have been steadily puting in resumes for another job and so far I have not found a new job. i know in this economy jobs are hard to come by and many people are out of work.
I have decided I am done stressing out over it. What ever happen happens. I know that if things get really bad me and my daught would still have a roof over our head because we can go and live with my mom although i would really hate for it to come to that but I am prepared for it. I am also in the process of trying to get a loan so I can continue to stay in school. I know my parents would help me if I really need them too but I hate accepting help from people especially from my mom because she throw it back in my face.Me and Jason my boyfriend get into arguments all the time because of this. I have always been a independent person and hate asking people for anything but I have gotten better at asking if i truly need help. I am thankful that I paid Bally's off last year when I had the extra money so I can continue going to the gym to get my work out on.
I finally feel like I am really back on track. for the last two weeks i have stayed within my calories most days and have burned my 1600 calories at the gym. I even lost 2 pound this week for the first time since April or may. I am determined that i will loose at least loose 2-4 more pounds before September.